Siying's

Always

2011-11-09T00:47:00.001+08:00

Ya lyin and ya cryin
You're killing me, I'm dying

Love drunk

2011-08-20T01:30:00.001+08:00

Let's not burden our remembrance with a heaviness that's gone. - William Shakespeare

Haven't blogged in forever but shoutout to nasty bastards like Salim (where the fuck were you 2nite?), I'm still getting hits from you bro!
Uh just a few thoughts to sum up this night.

Deadline. Mindfug. Should/would/could have. Mahjong. Chemistry > Attraction > Lust. Math test. Mrbrown Show. Venice/Spain. Guilt. Promos. Kneecap. Cruise/chalet. Proposals/PW. HTHT. "80 minutes. 15 positions. No protection. Wanna fuck?"

Life is mundane, monotonous and fulfilling. I thank whoever is up there, everyday.

thoughts read unspoken forever in vow

2011-04-10T22:27:00.002+08:00

Today i've decided that while i have always loved you and will always miss your not being there anymore, you're just not it for me and we've never been what the other needs so i'm sorry but i've got to really let you go now and i hope you find whatever you've been looking for all this time.

This makes me realise that my wayward heart has a great capacity for love but it's limited to only a few and i will never be able to truly open it up to anyone but family.

What that says about me i know but maybe this'll change in time, with the right people. Here's to hoping. And just expressing this takes such a huge fucking load off my back that's been weighing on my heart the past few weeks, seriously!
Time for my (1 week late) PI draft 2 baiz~

Better beware, be canny and careful

2011-03-29T20:33:00.004+08:00

So JC is hectic OMG KILLER ECONS ESSAY HAVENT START DUNNO HOW TO !?@#$%!$#@%$&!?! (pretty much any normal human's thought process when faced with assignments) but so much more fulfilling than the mundane upper sec years.

Had a happy hour lunch @ Hot Tomato with Dan, Mabel, Alvina and Evelyn (thinking of various acronyms i could form with their names :o)

food-sharing

fortune-telling

Sound of Music

45-minute bill counting

crowding Sogurt

animal-watching

It's awe.some.z to be in a Lit class to say the least, and you can always count on the class from hE11 to be full of antics. It's lovely to just sit around with a group of girls you aren't exactly close with, and then spend hoursssss just discovering all the things you have in common like Anne of Green Gables, Disney songs and a penchant for pizza italiană

Important dates coming up such as a certain bestie's birthday, I wonder if Kex thinks i've forgotten, but anytime she sees this i'd like to tell you dear, it hasn't slipped my mind that you owe me a chio tank top in return for the epic animal surprise i gave you last year horrrr
Homecoming, Mom's bday, sis' bday. B is the new Black, B for broke not birthday.
Looking forward to Shakespeare @ Fort Canning, & UK TRIP: SHOULD I/SHOULD I NOT!?!?!

Got to limit my online time so this'll be short, but to juniors still religiously checking for updates, here's a little something that should be on your minds these days: YES choosing JC was so worth it and HELL NO FUCK MY LIFE what was i thinking choosing to mug obviously i wasn't (thinking, that is) Good luck with the toughest decision of your effing life (to date)

P/s. baby youre on the brink

"short-term seperation"

2011-03-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

i will be here

Cry when they see you

2011-02-22T22:37:00.002+08:00

I hate myself so much for my outrageous procrastinating!
I don't understand why i'm doing this to myself, i know work needs to be done, i know i need to Review after every lecture - well i'm just not doing it.
And i'm always searching for reassurance like "oh it's okay i didn't do it either" or "oh it took me awhile to get used to JC too don't worry"
I can't always be relying on dumb luck for my exams can i!?!?!!?!?
Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh another coupla' hours wasted by reading/bloghopping

it's a fool who plays it cool,

2011-02-09T23:03:00.003+08:00

Just to satisfy curious minds and (of course) boast,
English A1
Chinese A1
Lit A1
Emath A1
Comsci (Phy/Chem) A2
Amath B3
Comhum B4

Damn. Proud. Of. Myself.
Amath really really should have gotten distinction, but then Lit and Comsci balances out what i deserve so...

I'm happy in NYJC, no really.
It's just that the transition to young adult fairly sucks.
I miss the 407 clique so much esp Joe and Salim who hardly ever speak to me these days!
Not so worried about the ever steady Mich, Chengz, Jaywhy, Charis etc.
And of course the fave girls Kex and Jo, reg friday meetings thanks :*
Burlesque with Joey tay was awe.some.z. Happy birthday dear girl!
Poon is my new JC bestie riteeee!?!?!? So much dirty gossip ehmagawdz.

Mixed feelings, and determination to get A A A B (at the very very least).
Gonna try to embrace 1134, my LitC(H1)ME combi and whatever CCA i get in. Que sera sera as always.

I know i'm blogging very rarely but who has the time!?!?!?
Oh, music keeps my spirit alive these days thank God for 60s/70s/80s music!

Okay all the best for the year ahead, this is my food for thought for you:
Too low they build who build beneath the stars. - Edward Young
Make this the best year of your life Yet (note the yet with a capital Y) just in case we all perish in 2012 and please forgive my occasional bout of lameness.

xoxo!

Sun Shuts Down

2011-01-07T19:25:00.004+08:00

my entire future hinges on that Moment on Monday when i first glance at my result slip. Only now does it awaken me so rudely like a bee sting on the nose, how one hour less of revision may/will ruin my whole life.

Maybe, maybe, i'm being just slightly melodramatic but still.
Shitfuckdamn is right.

Combusting

2010-12-30T19:03:00.003+08:00

So it's the last few days of 2010, time to look back, right?
I've just reflected on how far i've come in these sec schl years, surprisingly not that emotional about it ending because i actually am a very emotional person.
I don't even recognise the person i was in lower sec anymore, seriously. Really, thank God that phase is over and i'm right back to the yknw, younger me, and the me that i was meant to be all along.

I've always thought this and thus far havent come up with anything close to accurately describe this feeling, but my family... They are the best thing about me. Being a teenager in an almost dysfunctional family is a world of hurt yknw, but just one moment makes it all worth it.
But i'm always such an ungrateful brat, jeez - no more yelling CHEE BYE KIA at my grandma next year, for reals.

The race against time... There is so much to go out there to experience, so much to read, and see and learn, how can one ever be satisfied? Just browsing wikipedia you know, i start out by googling Wuthering Heights and end up with 300 tabs to skim before the session is concluded.
Don't know why shopping (like i have been doing so intensely that i have finished my Lunar New Year shopping in 2 days!) always gets me in a bitch of a mood the day after, hence, the rant.

Maybe it was watching VS fashion show on HD5 yesterday - no i'm not gonna yell "It's not fair!" but hey, besides the really gorgeous Candice and Rosie, I can't see the younger girls taking over the likes of Heidi, Selita, Doutzen Kroes, Miranda Kerr (having Orlando Bloom's beautiful baby), Karolina Kurkova, Marisa Miller - 2008 owned 2010 by epic proportions! I mean Chanel Iman, really? Don't even get me started on the days Gisele and Tyra shared the runway, okay.
At least Alessandra and Adriana are still holding down the fort, thank God for small miracles.

Okay i feel myself slipping into a brood, time to say bye (and at least there are reruns of Real Madrid matches to look forward to - you can't not smile at hot guys getting sweaty).

P/s. Just for the record, latest reads: Nora Roberts - every single book is very epic stuff, can't begin to make a dent in her outstanding collection but believe me i am trying!

"It's so easy to be wicked without knowing it, isn't it?"

2010-12-26T17:32:00.004+08:00

Oh, i remember being absolutely crazy about Anne of Green Gables by L.M. Montgomery when i was in primary school, maybe p3.
I'm gonna start 2011 with buying and reading a nice, new copy instead of the yellowed one i currently have.

Anyways this holiday i have been a disgustingly useless creature slinking around my house and occasionally to various libraries. Otherwise i get up at around 2pm. Have mustered myself up to go for a wedding, a class chalet, a movie outing, some lunch or dinner dates and irregular swimming sessions with myself. All these lazying about has been really good for me though cos ive totally mellowed out. So even-tempered i am these days.

On a sidenote it came as a pretty rude-awakening, how the hotels i stayed in in China were the most beautiful ones i ever stepped foot in, just shows how forward the country has become, you know. And the views - oh, so mesmerising!

Xmas mahjong = brains fried. Play for damn long, win a dollar - fuck that. Couldve gotten a dollar just digging around in maybe 10 vending machines.

Next week i will accomplish more than i have all holiday - high tea buffet at Equinox (OMFG $52++), new hairstyle and ear piercing ive been hankering for.

Oh and after being isolated (albeit by choice) for so long i feel... well, friendless.
It kinda also feels like loner is the new popular, though, idk.

And there is just this really special feeling that comes with Christmas, it's like warm honey trickling into your veins and you feel all tingly with delight, and then New Year's day isn't that far off and there is so much shimmering hope for the upcoming year and your rapidly approaching future - so overwhelming. It's wonderful.
Anyway, happy holidays!

你流连电影里美丽的不真实的场景；

2010-09-02T21:52:00.002+08:00

Call me queer but my sixteenth birthday has left me feeling slightly mellow, and kinda flummoxed and utterly bereft... While there is contentment, surely, there must be more?
Well the no-cursing pact has been broken more times than i could count, ah i shan't stop trying but darn it's hard!

Oh did i mention i finally got that Chinese A1 i've been hankering for? And the short 3-month journey of really learning Chinese for the first time in my life has made me realise how much i appreciate the language and the history behind it, yknw? So i think i'm definitely going to JC to pursue a better degree in Chinese, amongst the other subjects.
Though i really doubt i could go through the entire guilt+stress-inducing/trying to mug/panicking thingy for A lvls, but i'll cross that bridge when i come to it i guess.

By the end of this year i shall conclude what i often refer to as the First Part of My Life. It's been fun and all that shit.

P/s. I do so want to be an air stewardess for my prime years of 20+. I want it so much! Now i just have to get my looks and figure to co-operate with my brain. I will achieve it by sheer strength of will!

Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor

2010-07-16T23:11:00.002+08:00

Really wanted to harangue about shit all everything, just about, but eh i shan't.
So tomorrow i'll be going for fucking flag day darn it!
And from my birthday onwards i can't cuss til the new year starts.
Darn is allowed... right?

O lvls approaching at the speed of light, sometimes i get so scared i could crap my pants or something. Yeah not fun, i don't know how to buck up! It sounds like a lamebrain excuse... but idk, i don't have that level of self-discipline omgomgomg.
The thought of getting anything more than L1R5 10 makes me break out in a cold sweat.

Been missin' piano lessons, actually.
Been missin' Yoga too.

I am binging nowadays, it disgusts myself but i can't stop/ my stomach is truly a bottomless pit and it's a total disaster just waiting to unravel. My weight needs just this wee bit more push to escalate and before you know it i'm a 99kg elephant :(
Never been one to care about my weight, but i swear all the food i consume goes straight to my calves! And swimming x4/wk doesnt help either.

Anyway anyway.
Red hot chilli peppers, Five for fighting, Backstreet Boys, Westlife and Joan Osborne, like, (Y)

Baibaizzzz~

OMFGWTF WEISHENME SO AMAZING!

2010-07-01T17:12:00.002+08:00

Chillin' at Kellan's, supposed to be studying but let me tell you i just had to blog because his taste in music and his great finds on Youtube are like, absol fabulous.

Like a Dream by Chrisette Michaels:

Lydia Paek's this, amazingly talented little asian who I remember from America's Best Dance Crew and then like she has this amazing network of friends who can ALL SING and she's the best of all and she can DANCE super well too. What's unbelievable is freaking Kellan Lee Zhi Kang (same name as my cousin btw) found out about her too omgomgomgomgomg conveniences are so exciting. Anybody who doesn't check her out is losing out on major talent i swear to Jesus Christ.

Lydia Paek and AJ Rafael
Chasing Pavements - Adele

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Chasing Pavements and Officially Missing You

(I swear i would chain-smoke cigarettes if it gets me that sexy voice. Despite lung fucking cancer.
Oh ive always been interested in herbal cigarettes?
I know right I'm such a little walking talking encyclopedia.)

Boxcuttuhz rock.

AJ Rafael and his girlfriend Cathy Nguyen and more amazingly talented ppl in their network!
Lucky - Jason Mraz featuring Colbie Caillat

Rant: so why is it that Asians are always considered step yi ge when we get westernised but when freaking Ang Mohs learn Chinese they have the whole world cooing and praising them and peeing in delight or some shit? Eh? It's just fucking globalisation what seriously!
I have this major chip on the shoulder which i will probably always carry, and that is a total sudden about-face judging from my previous　崇洋ness. No really.
I am proud to be Chinese (so grateful to my Chi tutor who made me really LUV chinese for the first time in my 15+ years)! I'm pretty sure my watching 叶问II thrice magnified the effect as well.

eh eh who else think it's cool that i met him around the period that Eclipse was coming out? And i recently spotted a great interview of the ever-hot Kellan Lutz and Jackson Rathbone some more! Look at the chemistry (or maybe they are just actors) apparently they aint attached such a darn pity. Much hotter than Pattinson IMO.
You know how it is, you always want your favourite on-screen couple to be a real couple? Haha this Hollywooders definitely have expectations imposed on them left and right (from tabloiders like Joey tay and Ong Cheng Yee i swear!)
Still sad over Ryan Reynolds and Rachel McAdams break-up cos they were the best ever in the Notebook.
MTV's Best Kiss somemore!

Anyways I Love Eerie Coincidences.
and and and life is great.
School has been awesome!
Anywayz life is one huge rant right, so this was 407's BEST quote of the day so far IMO, "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on." - Robert Lee Frost. I luv the realistic and nonchalant tone. I can imagine saying it with a raised brow and casual shrug, y'know lmao.
Like hells yeah for the Lit ppl! The new classes are going well too, uh huh.

After Chi Os tmr, Kaleidoscope! (Expecting it to KICK ASS.)
Supper afterwards with Mich CY - a much needed gossip/ketchup session?
And Eclipse woot woots. Although i'm not a twilight fan. But still.

OKAY CHINESE ORAL REVISION TIME OMG OMG OMG!

我希望会出脚踏车或青少年问题/现象题！最好不要出什么稀奇古怪的措施题，我就谢天谢地了！
好紧张啊！
再见了！

[edited] The freak snooped through my stuff, declared that i was way mean to my two favourite girls from XMS and i should blog an official apology, and tried to impose his views on me about my bitchiness ._.
But i myself still wanna say this: JOEY TAY AND TAN KE XIN 我爱你们两个多多啦，好不好？ c:

Power Struggle

2010-06-08T18:11:00.000+08:00

You're kinda not invited and Outright cat-fight (i) (ii)

So, someone tell me i'm being melodramatic (like i don't already know) but my life is starting to resemble a slightly warped, less exciting, pathetic, and just as predictable episode of Gossip Girl.
No. really.
So i'm going to unleash all of my pent-up annoyance and indignance on my blog and i don't give a flying fuck who it offends.

This is to the two girls out there. Before i let it rip i would just like to say that i am really kinda pissed off with y'all. You know, just slight irritation bordering on frustration, like in the Elaine Gan kinda way, like in the "shit housefly get the hell away from my food" kinda way. Like in Blair's "you're kinda not invited" way.
When i think too much about it though it rolls into one huge ball of fury and i feel like stalking up to y'alls in the canteen and give you all a tight slap each to ring you out of the trance you are in and damn the consequences.
I know, not a pretty sight, i think not. So here i am ready to practise my typing and composition skills. Giving myself an hour actually, timed assignment.
(Oh and just fyi Kexin the Elaine Gan thing is ridiculous and absolutely insignificant but put beside this I kinda get where you are coming. Pardon little ol' me, a Literature student, if i'm a little slow on the uptake or misled in analysis. Just bear with me.)
I won't speak to the two of you in public because dear Ms Tan doesn't like public scenes (evident from the way she ran to the coffee-shop the other day and proceeded to bitch about whatever to her two avid listeners.) And Ms Tay would just like to be anon.
I get all that shit. Now you two don't seem to see where i'm coming from so i'll make it clear once and for all. See, i don't even know when or if the two of you will see this but when you do, i'll be so pleased and flattered that you all took notice.

Firstly, as opposed to what I thought after Kexin, you and I, left school together:
The matter is not resolved - pardon me for not catching up on Monday everything that has transpired since. But apparently Kexin, you seem to think everything is, (i quote Shermin) "Fine!" Wow! Everything is fine! I'll tell you this, nothing is fucking fine when we've been friends for four years and you can't seem to discuss a problem with me face-to-face. In my book, that's not fine. Not at all.
What else is not fine? That the two of you are looking right through me like i am fucking glass. See i'm a pretty tall, big, hard-to-miss person. I can't accept it when i appear so invisible that the two of you can't see me around, that you all go off to recess first, leave school first, whatever shit you all do when the happy little twosome pair up, whatever. I can't accept that, I don't get it, and if it is coming back to Yuhui it is mind-blowingly neurotic.

Joey: I have nothing to say to you, no hurtful words, no apology, no comment. I guess I don't know you well enough because I thought you'd be fine with anything, like me actually, and if anything was up you'd let me know at the first moment. Remember we had the little conversation about The Kexin Mystery right before her birthday? If you know her better, now that the two of you have been on your lonesome the past week, maybe the two of you ought to get together and make a vote if this friendship still works. I get that you wanna stay out of the crossfire. It's up to you.

Kexin: I meant it when i said i don't know who you are. I don't know if you've been listening but i really do not have any fucking idea who the hell you are and it is not fine with me that i have been friends with you for four years and i don't know what you think, what your motivation/motives are, what you do when we ignore each other every holiday, or what your fucking favourite colour is. All that is not fine with me, and something that i've tried to rectify time and again, but when i took a good look at you this year i got a shock at what was staring back at me. A stranger. I didn't see how one of my good friends could have been right there beside me and i don't know a single shit about her character or feelings or ups and downs or anything at all. I wanted to get to know you, and i thought i kinda did.
You wanted to go to polytechnic and be a vet. I don't know if it counts when i took you seriously and everyone thought it was the most hilarious joke ever, our bimbo wanting to be an animal doctor?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Yeah.

It's not fine that i've been asking and asking you "Am i a good friend? Where have i failed you as a friend?" since i realised you were suddenly into all this sensitive shit. And i never got an answer because you lied to me and said everything is fine and i'm a great friend!
Rude awakening: apparently not since i'm typing this post!
It's not fine that i always have to clarify myself; it's not fine that "you should know" is my catch-phrase when i'm speaking to you. Jeez, i thought you were so attuned to stuff like Joey being left out etc etc that i totally did not catch up on! It's not fine that i have to adapt to your sudden change and also realise that i don't know you and you don't know me and deal with it!
It's not fine that you declare that there isn't a problem, or rather it doesn't need to fixed, when you've put a name (Yuhui) on the problem and decided to steer clear of the situation.
It's not fine that our very classmates are using the words, "childish/immature" and "selfish" to describe both of your behaviour towards me and you can say that things are "Fine!"
Nothing about this situation is fine.
Then there's this Christian thing. Now that you've started saying prayers before you eat you wanna be a better person. Sorry if i'm confused, but you deem fit to cuss and gamble and you want to be a better person and less rude or hypocritic. Herein comes the struggle. Be polite and hypocritic or rude and real? You choose, and you know my choice.
"Sorry if I'm so likeable." Now it seems self-centered but it shouldn't come as a surprise to you.
I realise that over the course of the TWO incidents this year, i have all this pent-up resentment towards our friendship in general.

I set out typing all this shit not knowing if you will read it but hoping you will.
A letter is ridiculous i wouldn't wanna finish the ink on one pen and a whole block of fool-sketch.
A face-to-face talk is ridiculous because apparently you can only have a heart-to-heart with me when Joey is around and on a critical day she was having her braces on and you felt we could only resolve the problem once she was around! Yes, ridiculous.

I have no idea what your reaction will be. Humiliated, embarrassed, hurt, sad, angry, offended, neutral.
Now, i won't be offended if you call me a bitch. I won't be offended if you call me a hypocrite.
But i will not tolerate your hypocrisy and your "Fine!" offended me more than you would think.

To be totally honest, i do feel like i am totally maligned, wronged and innocent.
But i am a spiteful bitch. You heard it from me first.

As a conclusion, i can't be bothered anymore. I have tried to be objective. When there's a problem i try to fix it first. I have tried to mask myself to protect your feelings all the time and i stopped that this year which is why i'm double harsh because i thought you were the ones who wanted me to be brutally honest and could still take it. I am sensitive to others' feelings, but as for my own... I will put on a show, a cool unaffected and nonchalant front.

But do know that this is what i see of us in the future: this cold war or fine or whatever shit you wanna call it, will go on for another week or so, another month or so. Before you know it 6 months is up and i am out of there and you'll never see my face and i'll never see your face and when we bump into each other 2 years down the road i'll be courteous enough to laugh it off and pretend friendliness like we were BFFs for 3 and a half years and the last half of the year we were cold-warring and that shit didn't matter no more. And you'd send me a wedding invitation and i'd go and you'd never see me for the rest of your natural life. It's your eulogy or mine first, in the paper, and that's it.
You make me remember the Lynette incident and question myself again how that thing happened and why i let it and whether this thing will take a year to heal as well which is an absolute shame.
You make me regret treating my friendship circle as an exclusive club because these are the ugly remains.
You make me remember why i hate Xinmin then realise it's not Xinmin, it's high school and all this girly crap i have to deal with that i am in turns great and then not-so-good at.
You make me remember why i stay away from emotional attachments and why i say friends are dispensable and still are. It's you.

Broken friendships are nasty episodes that i will shove to the deepest recesses of my mind and pretend as if all is fine, so if you want to keep up the charade i am all for it.
But i regret that all these arose from, in my opinion, one moment i decided to pretend to be angry at you, and consequently where you decided to unleash shit on me.
I think we're both sorry.

and if you think so too, if you think that things could be as fine as they used to be then it's up to you to show it to me. Cos i'm done trying and thinking and ending up with such shitty results - because i can't believe i've failed at this friendship.
All i can tell you is this, I am the same Siying as 6 months ago, 1 week ago, and i will be the same tomorrow. indefinitely. I will tell you when i change again - but then we all change and we all stay the same.

Uhhhhh i just did a proof-read and boy do i sound bitter or what.
*shrugs shoulders*
All i've learnt/gathered from this recent conflict is that, i cannot bloody stand it when people are talking and talking but not saying anything, and not listening to anything either.
To me, ignorance is absolutely inexcusable.

JESUS CHRIST THAT BLOODY SHIT IS OVER I FEEL LIKE MY NAME HAS BEEN CLEARED.
That sombre tone is officially dropped, i can switch moods so fast people get whiplash, i know, i'm sorry, but i got onto FB and blog-surfing and there is so much to be happy about.

(i) Shop, food, shop, food food food?
(ii) the Primaries
let me just declare the BBQ was a rousing success really omg it was so nice to see everyone again!
(iii) the girlies
(iv) Family
(v) Just being alive, just being a child and being in school and having fun.
Much that has not been uploaded and i'll be right on it. I want to update my playlist before Genting (which i'm looking forward to) and i want to update all the 3 computers at home, esp my folders and files and accumulated stuff and do FILING! I guess it's true what J and K both noticed, big happenings make me wanna re-organise i think that's the best flaw of mine!

uh, hot dates (Y)? I have no idea what today meant... but no i did not commit hideous, scandalous crimes like Shermin predicted.
Blog song is so applicable right now, i think i need a holiday. Maybe it's a fall from grace. I gotta find a new place (blog url, but you'll still be seeing me i promise!)

When I was younger I used to be wild,

2010-06-03T22:41:00.005+08:00

"Innershine: wants every woman to shine, day and night."

Cranberry for the day and Prune in the evenings. This amazing concoction has seen me through O level Chinese.
I can't say ive done my very damn best but i'm beyond proud to realise that i can, actually, cram like mad over a long time frame.
Now it's 口试！

MYEs far from ideal, but that straight-A slip is definitely something to work towards!
Just as what Ms Kuck has said, i feel an extremely appropriate amount of stress. Since i have regained control and moderation over my school and home lives, i can safely say my goal is back, clear in sight.
As most may have noticed my moods have been fluctuating for the better part of 3 months. I'm fine now.

That said, my personal life is all but going to shit.
I feel like i am in a fucking labyrinth 99% of the time which is ridiculous.
I crave peace but i enjoy the drama. Does that even make sense? IKR!?
I am an introverted social animal which sucks for me. (ref to incident in school today)
You know how it's like, when you love being around new people, rambling to large groups or just one dedicated listener because being a big sis i alr listen to 6 all the damn time, and... and... and...

Anyways.
XGT was hilarious but real fun! TBH this is geeky but i seriously can't wait for the next round. Adrenaline rush; it's so liberating and exhilarating, even, to throw all cares to the wind and just sing out loud in front of an audience who may or may not care. Because that moment is about US. Whoo~
The Last Song was moderate. Friends (Y)!
M has been repeatedly stood up and i sincerely apologise, i know you'll see this, i also know the cause/effect thingy has been made extremely clear to you so starting TODAY i would like... a lot... of distance. Indefinitely.
It was nice to hang out with D on Sat, and the prim guys were real sweet to come down and treat me to Bak Kut Teh! In some ways i realise that most of my primary school friends are the ones who know/at least accept the REAL ME such that they are used to my antics. *sigh* the good old days.
So, looking forward to tomorrow's BBQ!

Oh i can't believe i forgot, GSS is here and we have done the first two rounds of mass-stomping-on-other-shoppers'-stilettos thingy which is major luv as always!
And i want to be booked out to play, i still wanna watch Robin Hood and go prawning with Seewhy Jaywhy Mich etc etc etc cmon let's get it done!

"被爱的人不用道歉"

2010-05-16T18:26:00.013+08:00

All the shit below was blogged on the 16th this month. Just sayin'. Past news thanks.

Haha Six's and my height compared to the two little ones ^^

First and foremost, MYEs sucked.
Yes it's the kinda case where everyone is grinning after exams and you just feel like a complete fool cos you found the paper hard. IE I didn't do well for Chi (results suck balls), Humans, Physics, both Maths... As for the others, i can't remember them being spectacularly easy either. Ah well i shan't cry over spilt milk.
In spite of all the hard work i put in (which did led me to light the mightnight oil a coupla' times), in spite of the appearance of stress: People, i have been relaxing/playing. Don't know where some kids have gotten rumours from all the way but i am damn fucking fine with everything!

So this shall be a wordy+ photospam post.
Yeap ive been going crazy on FB with the football stats/
Uh huh uh huh, did i see Chelsea fucking win the entire season with a big bang and Drogba get the Golden Boot with 3 killer goals? (not exactly but anywayz)
So Man utd can suck my balls and we'll see what kinda line-up they show next season. Anyway i never got the Rooney thing. Ugly, slimy, bastard. Officially i am supposed to be a fan, Nike jacket and all bought but times change yknw!

Happy birthday Lui Si Xuan!

you know you've always been a pretty huge bitch, but I am too so at least you learn how to cope with bitches right! Sooooo i think it's time to act 13, think a bit more, and you know... Contribute to the family (we're all making efforts in our own ways lah actually). K luv you as always sis; your card and prezzie gonna hafta wait!

So these few days have been pretty great/

last day of MYEs,
Went to Plaza Sing with the peoples to catch Iron man 2 which was great!

Yay Shermin! :D

Yay! Iron Man II ownz. I was hopping on the seat, holding my bladder, harassing Salim to tell me the plot and cussing and screaming. Lmao such fun |m/

Yes this is what girls do when we get together! c:

"Should buy not? Really ah 50%? Hm i kinda need shorts and stuff...." Sorry girls made you all my shopping slaves! :x

I got a gold chain, I'm on cocaine, I'm like yo 'mang!
So refreshing going out with the artsy-fartsies means we get 100+ photos for each outing hehehehe :D All on FB.

day after MYEs,
while the triples had their Biology paper hehehehehe.
Went to Sentosa with the girlies (finally~)

So it was the rainiest day ever and i thought we'd gone to the beach to play and get dirrrty and wet but apparently i was the only one ._.
Self-entertained, self-appointed chauffeur, kept myself movin all day like my ass was on fire while the lazy bitches slogged around like they had lard piled in their thighs.

So we chionged to the cinema, were late for Ip Man 2 (which was pretty awesome), made a hell of a din throughout, and i chionged back to meet mom & sis for dinner.

And then i got sick. Like really fucking sick. The car had gone from Kovan MRT to the row of eateries cos I wanted to get Selegie soya milk, and i puked. Like, i hadn't even eaten the whole day except for freakin' nuts, but i puked really bad into a roadside canal. and people were actually staring.
The awesomest sister in the whole entire universe had the cheek to sms her hundred-and-two boyfriends or so while her big sis was retching up her guts in public; she handed me the occasional tissue or two, so yeah. You see why i just love her to bits and pieces.

So i got MC for friday! That part wasn't that bad. I even went to school to hang with the masses, get my Tami Hoags from Yuhui (thanks babe! Your 报章报道 and classical music by this week, promise!), then went home.

Yesterday David came over and we hung out and talked and went with mom & sis for dinner@Thomson, and jammed. It struck me multiple times that he's my oldest friend but definitely nowhere near the closest... something to think about for a bit. I'm always surprised to see my primary school guy friends come out and fearlessly strum a guitar/sing a song. It seems they are as multi-talented as I am. (Have i mentioned my mind-blowing self-love?) It was a brain-cell killing day deigned to mellow me out and get my mugging-mood recharged full again, for sure.

Been cussing like a boy and shouting 'you motherfucking pussy!' and Hokkien vulgarities.
Also been walking around with wobbly knees and getting dizzy spells and the best-ever pounding headaches. Insomnia makes me a walking and swaying zombie and that worries me to no end, to tell you the truth.
My mind body and spirit are ganging up to send me a message: I am living a warped life! I'm returning to the exercise much and keep healthy diet (no red meat/fast food, whole grains, protein, etc.) Lifestyle.

ive realised one thing: a few precious people take notes on my life. But that's sweet as all get out in my opinion. Or are y'all just out to stalk me..... lmao ^^

Movies to catch
The Last Song (Joey tay)
Robin Hood (Yuhui)
Back-up Plan (you should not know for sure!)

So today I'm back in the mood! So ready to study Chinese like the world was being attacked by meteors and only China would survive and be the ruler of all eternity, yep.
This time i am NOT going to fail!!!!! (i.e. not as in D7 but as in anything less than A is unacceptable!
And... and i want it so bad, so bad that I think i'm gonna get it.

much has changed.

Dirty laundry.

2010-04-28T17:38:00.004+08:00

Two seconds or so ago I had the hugest yelling match with my grandmother. I told them not to touch my stuff. I told her not to ever change my bedsheets cos i am a cleanliness freak and i HATE that she still did it and this is like more than the tenth time this has happened. I have no time to put the covers back on my 7 pillows/bolsters. I hate it. I am having exams. I have no time to freaking change my bedsheets on my own and I dont want anyone to do it. It's not anyone's problem I just hate it when people touch my bed which is my oasis. Still i feel infinitely guilty for yelling. I did not just yell though, I went off the rocker. I was so angry that she tried to think of ridiculous counter-arguments like how my two fucking useless cousins (who are respectively 20 and 21 and still have anger issues) treat her so good and buy her stuff. They buy her stuff with their money yeah sure blah blah kids nowadays are so spoilt and shallow they never ever see past the ends of their nose, those two older cousins included. I screamed so loud I lost my voice for quite a while. I was so angry I was shaking and my chest was just constricted and I could barely breathe I thought I was going to hyperventilate like the other time. I saw stars and felt actually kind of light-headed. And my dad came in and shouted i was fucking useless and do i have to fucking scream. And i pushed the dining room chairs so hard they almost toppled. And i slammed the door multiple times and when I slam i mean slam like venting out my anger kinda slam.
And yet i feel so guilty. I was not at fault you know. My father always used to blow his top. My father is the one who demonstrated the spoiling of furniture and slamming of doors until they cracked. My grandmother was the one who messes with my personal stuff countless times. She really does steal our family food to give to her other useless bankrupt son (who is divorced and the poorest amongst her eight kids). There have been countless issues. And yet i feel so guilty. Because it was my fault for yelling. Because she is my grandmother. Because i know she feels bitter that none of her 8 children/ 20+ grandchildren that she single-handedly brought up reciprocates her care. I know all these because i talk to her in the wee hours of the night when i have insomnia and she has arthritis and we both really can't sleep.
And i know all these and yet i yelled at her so loud today seriously my whole tower would have heard. They would assume i'm the lousiest child ever who puts on such a pretty front. The fact is that i don't care what people think. But now it's gonna be another bridge to mend at home.

Every home has dirty laundry that should never be aired in public. Everyone has a story; a black shadow. I know most girls have an Electra complex of some sort. I believe it's cos all girls at some point in life have been disappointed by their family and directly blame it on the father who is supposed to shoulder the weight of the family on his strong shoulders. Fathers just tend to let down the entire family because men have to be put on a leash, but a loose one.
Yes, girls are such emotional creatures. I hate that I'm one of them. That means i am by default emotional and yes i freely admit i am emotional times 10.

Guys are worse. Don't even get me started, let me just talk about their major self-love. They have barely stepped out of their cave with the weight of their ego they like to lug around everywhere they go. I am surprised none of them are suffocated by the hubris that clouds them every step they take. Yes Narcissus was doomed to love himself and he doomed all his gender as well (very aware of the generalisation i am making. Please read 'I don't care'.)

Talking about male egos just totally brought me off my anger and i immediately saw hilarity in my absurd arguments. Thank God; for a minute there a vein in my forehead popped so hard i thought i was having spontaneous combustion (melodrama). Just ask my girlfriends, i get so worked up i can barely think straight/see straight/breathe right.
I am always worried about my health.

Yes i love my family. I love them so much i can hardly bear to quarrel with them half the time but bottling it all up is so much worst. But then i've learnt from a long time ago that only familial love is truest. And only familial love is worth crying for.
Yeah that is why i always said friends are dispensable, though that has caused major misunderstandings over the years, it still stands true.
Last note: when (not if), when i get my 7As, i hate to say that none of it would have been my family's effort and contribution. By none i mean zero. Zilch. Nada. None.

Relevation

2010-04-26T02:18:00.002+08:00

every single piece of news about Kexin/close friends i discover that i did not previously know right, it hits harder every single time i hear one more truthful accusation.
You all should know by default you all are valued above all else (or rather valued below family and studies.)
Kex: i believe your God has helped you greatly but you still have to learn to trust me. Because Joey totally does. Really. (just so you somehow MISS IT by not SEEING IT okay!)

Step 1 for myself: avoid insensitivity like swine flue. Or rather be as sensitive to friends like i'm sensitive to sweat. Yeap.
Step 2: mug CHINESE then mug EGEOG. I mean it.

One day at a time and i luv all you guys out there (esp 407 girls major luv thanks) you all have helped me to rediscover the sanity i get when really getting into mugging.

Saturday was spent with Jynn and Poon. Awesomez ppl but ended up jamming few hours straight. Heehee didnt mean to disappear from Daiso leh! Couldnt find y'all >:(

Today disiao Yuhui, Kex and Salim from studying. Feel really bad actually. Sorry guys! Just cant stop my mouth from running off with itself!
Social call OngSee i still love you as much as ever! <3
Mich/Charis high time for catch up after MYE!

Yeah yeah i hate girly rants like that. Geez.

P/s. Not mushy does not mean i am automatically cruel and act sociable. Thanks ah FRIENDS. *coughs at Kex and JoTay.
P/p/s: hate? Hate is immature. There is no SIN to dislike ppl for their behaviour. It's just whether you place polietness over hypocrisy or the other way round.

Eh CLOSE FRIENDS not just GOOD friends please read this post clearly and TAG to let me know you have. Sucker asses have to be prompted like computer windows.

Insomnia

2010-04-24T04:07:00.000+08:00

what can i say? read title.
Begging/groveling with Salim to meet me earlier for maths.

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

2010-04-13T23:51:00.007+08:00

the Best kind of exhausted when youre high strung, you wanna get everything done, youve been up all day doing so much stuff and you feel just so worn out.
Haha everytime sleep late right before diva Mr Cheng's lit lessons: ownz.
did so much homework but not Lit: double ownz.

recently: Anaemia, insomnia,
cut aluminium + sleepover + Homecoming (perversely awesome) I WANT JUMPSHOTS!?!?!? (jynn and yuhui!?!?!?),
pranks, highs and lows, fun Eng lessons
X-407 Got Talent?,
and Getting Serious About MT O'Levels and MYE (Chem and comb.humans chiong) uh-huh uh-huh.

Happy birthday Shermin ho.
Joey tay get well soon.

always learning to appreciate, more and more - Satisfaction.
Having said that, 'tis the season to start Shopping! been way too thrifty it's time to start rewarding myself.

Softly we tremble tonight, picture-perfect fading smiles/

2010-04-07T21:23:00.001+08:00

idle life.
schl is great.
there is a very comfortable security in a peaceful and mellow life.
I will not always be satisfied with this busy inaction (i know such contradiction), however all the excitement i can take at this time is pretty much Homecoming and prep for MYE. Thank god for libraries when our homes get too noisy.
Forever thankful for family and friends (you are not all dispensable. A few special ones are pretty spectacular and deeply appreciated.)

Tan Ke Xin: 16 years old. Finally we're working together for a common goal right O lvls!
I gave her a pwnage surprise even if i do say so myself. All the girls occupying that area in the canteen were squeaking and hopping around even faster than the frog or hamster. Now everyone pls never get back at me in a similar manner thanks.

did i mention i luv it when Shermin picks up any guitar and our entire class (girls) break into song?
Really enjoy being in 407, this is as good as it gets.

Straight distinctions: it is very possibly attainable, it is something to work very hard for, it is right within my grasp and it can slip away so easily......
I crave that 7A1 slip more than i have ever craved any Poltock&Walsh design or Christian Louboutin shoes or whatever.
Glad for the decrease in materialistic wants.
Wants to help the whole freakin world, dying animals, melting Poles and trees being wiped out all included.

and i do know i have been stressing the entire population out.
sorry lor many ppl find it extremely motivating hiak hiak.
This is the new Siying. Get used to it. (your opinion does not matter), Thx.

Concrete Jungle where Dreams are Made Of?

2010-03-28T14:48:00.006+08:00

I wanna go to all the big cities someday! and also all the small towns. and crowded beaches. and isolated beaches. and the se7en wonders. and and and...milanvenicegreeceoldtraffordforsuretexasnarizonanseattleanddefintielyliveinVancouverforawhile it's a never-ending list.

Yay for Alice in wonderland!
kinda bored and annoyed at first by the ever ugly Johnny Depp what is with his obsession with ugly roles? and started lovin' it the minute i saw beautiful Hathaway.

FAIL/sort of pass.
And no yay for my piano performance EPIC FAIL! lmao even the two bimbos can tell i sucked ass.

and for sure Yay for trashy/witty/emo rom-coms When in rome!
And yay for no hong yi ren shi!
all failz.
yay for no failz.
and Yay for chomps as well, Jiayi's camera is the bomb. despite the totally fail cover lens.

stay home weekend for chores. i wanna go T1 or Ion!
So much to niap about since Mom been back.
and been realising i am reverting to the old mean neurotic and spoilt child. Please Siying's conscience dont let it happen!

Us girls we are so magical!

2010-03-26T22:14:00.003+08:00

This is the picture hello dears look closely!
Hahahaha the two lesbian girls dont they look all sexily seductively slutty???
The minute i saw it in my camera I Kissed a Girl started playing in my mental soundtrack!

shopping tomorrow with girliez i swear i will get a backpack for school.

And now all I can see are the planets in a row,

2010-03-20T23:27:00.004+08:00

Cinema yumz!
Jeez the church thing weirded me out though everyone was real nice. Religion is not for me at this point in my life that's what i figured.

So daddy brought us to the Mandai driving range today and damn I must say my posture's great (compared to Xuan's)! Didnt realise until i took a good look at the few pix we took like for the last few balls, unscripted thx.
Yeah i can hit as far as around 80m, it's further than it sounds and harder than it looks!
had fun.

study session for me was uneventful and not fruitful at all: myself to blame lah but I knew it anyway.
So ive seen who i wanted to see, done (mostly) what ive wanted to do besides Sentosa~ yeah pretty okay.
Gunning up for performance at J8 it's nothin' big but still, you know, havent been hitting the keys well recently so kinda worried.

and Ive absolute been runnin' wild. Yes i know holiday's over got to get to work! and my mommy's coming back finally! Missed her way a lot this time 'round but it also means no coming home in the wee hours *hint hint Marc; Yeahhhhh but for now the night's still young......

You wanna be on top?

2010-03-17T21:27:00.002+08:00

And.... It's back!

can anyone say Hells to the yeah?

luv TV absolute adoration and the obsession truly begins now K goodbye O levels!

Outwit outplay outlast.

2010-03-17T19:37:00.005+08:00

Tyson:
“ I don't know... it was almost scary to look into their faces, not that it was intimidating but I worried for their sanity.
At one point i looked over at JT (an opposing tribe member) as he was hollering, i don't know what he was sayin' but I was just like, aw he's embarrassing himself by yelling this jargon and looking completely aggressive and wild, I... I don't know.
It, it was probably something people see at war, and that you never wanna see again, it could be actually traumatising. I'm not the type of person to be traumatised so I'll be fine, but I worry for the rest of my tribe. They shouldn't have ever had to see something like that.

Well i knew the Heroes (as opposed to his tribe the villains) would have a clear advantage because you know they're all big strong dudes and... manly women. So... *shrugs* I didn't in my head already decided they had won but I had already set myself up for the disappointment so it wasn't too unbearable for me.
I mean I'm from generation X anyway so I don't feel highs or lows. I mean once in a while I'll play it up for the team, you know 'oh bummer, dang-namit!' or if we win I'm like 'hurrah, huzzah huzzah' but it's, for me yeah it really doesn't matter. ”

Courtney:
“ The Heroes (opposing tribe) have James, Rupert, Colby, Tom Westman and JT. So they got all these like '(puts on Southern drawl) I'm just tryna work hard, blah blah blah, build the shelter,' everybody knows how to do stuff, they all pitch in, everyone works this like real tough manual labour kinda job, or they're really like giving, you've got grave-diggers, fire-fighters, cattle-ranchers, all these down-home boys who know how to do everything.
We have, delusional Coach, hilarious Tyson. We have the lost crew ship passenger Randy who just looks like a confused cross between Jack Nicholson and bee otter, right. Rob is trying his best and going in circles because this is the crew he's working with.
Oh, and Russ! Crazy Russ who, I keep forgetting he's around because he just lives in the woods and he's like (monkey impression) and comes like sneaking out with like a bag full of crabs. ”

“ In China (another season) no-one actually lifted a finger besides James because he's like a one-man like working machine I don't think he knows how to switch it off, so I think I'm completely spoiled by that, and now I'm being, I'm like, I'm marooned on the land of the complete fools.
Nobody knows what the hell they're doing and I don't wanna be wet. It's never stopped raining here, except for right now and when we got here. Anything else I can pretty much handle but I cannot be wet, I weigh 3 pounds... I freeze.
And I've lost it, last night, me and the other girls all lost it, there was weeping, I mean it was not cute. At all. There was a lot of crying and then Boston Rob sang us happy birthday to help us cheer up. It was rough-going.
So I mean, motivation to not get soaked, and die, is forcing me into a worker role, and Danielle is like coming out as like the leader, more than anyone else just because she's freaking out about getting wet again, so she's yelling and it's just terrible because this whole group is a bunch of people who...
No-one cares! They bitch when it doesn't work, I'm one of them I know this! You bitch when it doesn't work but you don't wanna fix it! But there's no-one else! It's literally nobody else! It's just us!
This is the worst thing in the world! I'm on the worse team ever! And I'm the biggest part of it! I hate this team! These people stink! I don't even wanna be on my own team, this is terrible! I'd kick myself off if I could. I wanna go home, this sucks. ”

The most hilarious commentaries and more! Can you wonder why I totally Adore Survivor?
Been checking out all the cuties from the previous season too, at Ponderosa and all the other seasons when people where hookin' up it was hawt.
And and and when the girls in the Boys vs Girls Amazon season when they stripped nekkid for peanut butter and chocolate, and coke! And the manly guys started drooling and melting into pathetic puddles "Oh there you go," "Yeah that's what I'm talking about" "Oh god why me?" "I'm not looking I'm not looking" "Damn I'm gonna look!"
"we're definitely the original Survivor girls gone wild. There's no doubt about it."
"Yeah, the Amazon chicks."

And to the girlies who've been nagging me non-stop to show up tomorrow, I'm going to!
I swear i'm going to show up i'm really going to show up tomorrow! Jeez! :D

pretend you dont know youre a legend,

2010-03-16T05:50:00.001+08:00

dear John second time round!
Marc was dead embarrassing in the theatre and everyone was PO'd I swear but he was so obnoxious and pretending blissful oblivion it was major hate in there!!!!!
Mortifying as all get out.
and he still thinks he's a Godsend.
how old already?!?!

Now waiting for the two Joeys and yuting(?) to hop onto 74 and go to... *gasp* church! well, kinda.

major!

2010-03-15T22:52:00.001+08:00

so upset that i didn't buy Aldo hairbands 4 for $10 eh what was i thinking Joey Tay please just stab me.
and yes i know it is highly inappropriate to blow a gasket over freakin' hairbands but my money is just flowing like water. Damn.
unraveling emotions = leave me alone I Mean It.

Pulled too many false alarms.

2010-03-15T22:35:00.003+08:00

Dear John was good but i guess they always say the Notebook is epic?
anyways sis and i will get both dvds makes for a good past-time for lazy Sunday afternoons.

the real thing and it's hot stuff.
autotune but always enjoy this pair.

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love we've been working on

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's going to come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms

We're going down
And you can see it too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw

I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand

We're going down
And you can see it too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

Go cry about it, why don't you?
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

Don't you think we ought to know by now?
Don't you think we should have learned somehow?

time time time hasn't told anyone else yet!

2010-03-14T17:23:00.006+08:00

@Bodyworlds on the last day it was mind-blowing.

wear this kinda skirt also will kena. Yeahhhhh JT and Kex know what i'm talking about.
so Happy to finally get a 100% leather Fossil wallet under a hundred bucks though i was ready to blow three times that on Burberry but decided against it.

@Zara! Haha Joey tay we every week shop/eat/movie/buy LBD books (at least for me!)
Ehhhh polyclinic send me letter say i never pay siah. Got fine somemore. :(

4yrs major lovesx.
Shine was pretty okay, wanted to go out with Marc after but reached home and fainted/

Promise promise promise myself. after Homecoming i mean serious business....
for now March holiday's to-do!
Alice in wonderland
Dear john
Crazy heart
damn i hate that i cant get into Hurt locker.
Hwiecheng's bday celebration (2006honesty!!!!)
Chalet
Buffet x1 yes no Stace?
Sentosa
karaoke Tan Ke Xin the sucker go her damn superteens! (:x actually i'm the one backing out sorry my dear.)
Hardcore study day x1 (Thurs at AMK!)

so much to do so little time.

you couldve knocked me out with a Feather;

2010-03-09T00:17:00.008+08:00

Despite gilbirdie's help ive wasted away this night NOT studying just watching academy awards and 'chillin' (who even says that?!?!?! oh i know! Marc!) and browsing.

and despite all big talk i'll probably only get one of these once i hit 18. Contradicting myself; i want mine to be utterly unique so long i don't see someone else with the same one. really like all these.

I think tattoos are for people who are passionate about showing the world what they are passionate about? takes guts to ink something and mean it....... and for me, for now, that's piano. Thank god for this education ive received since i was seven, it has helped me more than anyone knows.

“ my best friend mandi; we need more people like her on earth.

“I got it done so that anyone and everyone who ever sees this tattoo will know that someone in the world, somewhere, views them as beautiful.” ”

“ this was my first tattoo: a single rotation of a tesseract, a four-dimensional hypercube. i believe everything you experience has a hidden dimension. ”

crazy beautiful, no?

“Cherry blossoms for a woman's strength, beauty and independence. ”

“ “all good things are wild, and free”

this is something that my mother used to always tell me growing up. it’s sort of a reminder to myself that i don’t need anyone but myself, that i can be anyone i want to be, that i am wild and free. ”

i got a lot of friends stuck on classic Coke,

2010-03-06T10:00:00.002+08:00

New year new skin, finally got around to changing it.

Rivervale mall+long chat with Kex (as always!)
Lunch+another long chat with Joey Tay. like i told her i have a crazy chio pic of them looking like total (you know i'm gonna say the L-word!) ahem sluts.
Bodyworlds with these two fave girls laterrrrr~

was @T3 as early as 6AM to send mom off and had macs brekkie.
i luv how the airport is one place you just know is always buzzling with activity regardless of the time of the day and yet it is the loneliest place in the world you can be too. i am spoilt by our amazing Changi airport which is absolutely fabulous when i compare it to any other airport i've been in.

k off the OCY's for tuition! Having tuition on the weekends is such a drag!

Hearing those words it makes me weak.

2010-03-03T20:51:00.003+08:00

It was a real family wkend! Watched little big soldier i liked it manz Wang lee hom is hot stuff then again i like all movies yeahhhhh.....

Vday with Joey tay long overdue. Chompchomp with the <3lies as usual ate damn a lot with Joey tay kexin act demure only $5 hokkien mee hahahahaha! :D:D:D

talk with Michelle today and Gosh! it's March already! When are we going to start studying, like really start studying? I'm so worried for myself at this point.... but still gonna enjoy lah hee hee after Homecoming maybe? Sheesh. i really don't wanna grow up!

I said it's hearts all over the world tonight;

2010-02-25T20:51:00.004+08:00

Joey tay: She's hot here, now admit it!

Always get hooked and started watching it all it's an onslaught of beautiful women beautiful fashion beautiful runway delightful music luv VSFS! That year was particularly amazing!

Kex, this is nicer than your gay songs inc Cradle for sure!!!!!~~~

everyone i loved before, Flashed before my eyes,

2010-02-22T20:01:00.003+08:00

Been grouchy all afternoon and Marc was too sweet to put up with my mindless rantings, that's a first for sure!
So many movies i wanna catch, everyone hackling me to gamble gamble yeah maybe i'll show up for a session or two here and there.
i Really Need to Start Swimming Again my entire physique is protesting.
my leather wallet is nearing my grasp every cent every dollar........
K time for maths tuition hmw!

oh and before i forget....
Yes good friends friends forever blah blah then you always turn your back on what you've said wish for more or less and blow hot and cold. now my nerves are fraying and i'm using up all my patience and years of weekend then friday evenings that seem deceptively mundane and are yet so fulfilling all these are shattering into pieces because of your selfish greed. make up your fickle mind.

Back under the stars and back into your arms?

2010-02-18T23:06:00.004+08:00

Yay 407 BBQ! :D

Stupid girls! Had fun chillin' out for the afternoon according to Jynnlyi 'you all are so gossipy!' I know right!
Today the whole class was seh one side which was hilarious to watch.
Eh eh gamble not enuf i want play hardcore mahjong play tai play $1 $2 who want come come come!

Double yay for random movie dates!

Imaginarium was breathtakingly beautiful actually! Visual delight, and i totally dug the bizarre feel of it all. Still luv Heath Ledger. Primary schl buddies are as always one of the very best.

P/S. Avril Lavigne's so gay but which girl doesn't listen to her songs? Really?

If i had my way, i'd never get over you!

2010-02-16T22:14:00.004+08:00

Chompchomp yay!
Been at Chompchomp so many times! We took the wrong bus and realised it damn late. Walked from like Bowen to Monfort with Joey tay loveloves we talk a lot hehehehe. Stupid girl never ask me out for movie people waiting for your call :(

New year yay!

1st day, typical siandomz going around relatives' houses. Gamble gamble.

2nd day Bad lunch at Sheraton's Libai, more gambling in the evening. Jamming at Ashley's house with her electric guitars til midnight, can kill living and wake dead.

3rd. Some 407 ppl were gonna come over but one backed out so all backed out so gambled all day outside, Mahjong big wins taiti big losses.

Daddy has won like SO.Much.Money = all of us got some extra bucks to spend also! Teehee so glad i dont need be gambling Queen daddy gambling King can already.

Tomorrow 407 BBQ!

"She calls me baby, then she won't call me?"

2010-02-11T22:01:00.003+08:00

Big revelations every single time i log on to MSN, cant get over it AHHHHSHRIEKSZOMFG!!!!!
Hilarious shitxz though.

kay random peektures;

i want fly kite come back fly kite with me?

searching for Blond-haired/Blue-eyed angmohs so much fun.

9th Feb HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ WE HAVE COME SO FAR SINCE FIRST BEING TABLEMATES JOEY TAY! Heehee had fun traipsing around Kovan and Bishan after class deco today. Btw my class' deco pwns \m/ We. Confirm. Win.

Chompchomp with Mich and Xavier (cuz we kena pangseh by 3 damn evil witches who fly aeroplanes) was so good i am going right back tomorrow with Joey Tay hehehee!

Schl has been okay and i actually do really enjoy some lessons but GEEZ THANK HEAVEN FOR LUNAR NEW YEAR I NEED THE BREAK~~~~ no idea how i'm going to get through the big Os!

Anyways gongxifacai wanshiruyi everyone!

We're not moving on, we're standing still.

Cuz you had a bad day?

2010-02-04T21:19:00.009+08:00

Do you know what i mean when i say there are all sorts of love? At least one person (Joey Tay right!) Haha i know you agree :D

"Here’s to all the girls who used to be his number one.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, but woke up disappointed.
The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in months later like nothing ever happened.
To those girls who cried the first day you talked again, because you knew exactly where that conversation was going.
The ones who listened to him say “I only want to be friends” one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he knew he was missing.

Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he could be different, hoping that maybe people can change.
To the ones who listened to their friends talk about how stupid it was to even be thinking about giving him another chance, fought with our parents about it, and even snuck around to be with him for a while.
To the ones who went through that great stage of no fights all over again.
To the girls who ended up falling in love all over again.

In the end, we wanted nothing more than to hear him say he loved us, too, even though things had been terrible in the past.
And when we finally heard it, it all felt too good to be true.

This is for us, who have experienced all of these things over and over again.
Here’s to the girls who believed whatever he said, and sat around waiting on something that never happened.
Here’s for all the tears that were cried and dried all over again.
Here’s to the girls that wanted so desperately to believe that he was just really busy.

To all of us who trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.
We learned to settle for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.
Here’s to the girls who did their hair and makeup, only to hear him say that he wasn’t gonna show.
Here’s to those of us who never believed the people who told us that there might be someone else, because we refused to believe that he could do it again.
This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words could have ever said, and took him back no matter what had happened the last time because they couldn’t bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if?"

This is for the girls that stayed up until early morning listening to him whine about his current girlfriend who had just cheated on him, only to cry after he went to sleep.
To the ones who hoped he would realize he deserved better, that he deserved us.
For the girls that held onto something that was never there to begin with.

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to admit that he still loved us, but three weeks later, he let us down.
To the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt, and the ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.
For the girls who could just tell they had made a mistake from the very beginning, because they knew they deserved better the entire time.

Here’s to the ones that finally realized that he never really cared.
Here’s for that time he broke your heart again, and for those days spent trying to hold back tears, tears that turned from anger to disappointment.
Here’s to us girls who finally backed away from the situation and couldn’t believe that we had let ourselves become so blind.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt.
Remember the times you cried and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy the way you looked at him.

When "your song" comes on the radio, change the station.
When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, ignore it.
When he tries coming to your house, don’t answer the door.

Think of the broken promises, the lies, the manipulation, the tears, the wasted moments, and staying up all night overanalyzing where you must have gone wrong.
Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night and how it fell to your stomach when you saw that it wasn’t him.

One day, you’ll find a guy who is worth all of the tears, but won’t make you cry.
You may think you’ll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.
It’s gonna hurt like hell, and it will take time, but the point is, it will heal.
This is for those girls who were more afraid to not take a chance than to risk getting hurt."

(Ruixian's.)
I am so sorry. If you know it's you....... You should never take me back. This has been on-off for 3+ years. & You will always be one of my dearest friends.

Now imagine yourself as the heartbreaking boy in this situation? I have just had a rude awakening and i really wanna cry. I finally understand why OCY told me i was damn fucking bad. Fucking blind what have i been doing?! I feel damn guilty/sad/emotional right now the only thing cheering me up is Ruixian's unexpected jokes. Thanks babe as usual luv our chats. Gahhh we are such girls always emotional.

Luv chats with Joey, Kex, Chengyee (ytd damn LOL!) as well.

Girlfriends are the truest friends and i never ever wanna be in a relationship ever. I am the girl who hurts pple and at the same time also the one afraid to take a chance and risk getting hurt. So shoot me.

Reality is crashing to the floor.

2010-01-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

Um been watching the jumpers of Sept 11 it's real disturbing and Jesus Christ is there humanity left in this world? People can be going hell yeah as the towers crumble i swear it is ridiculously fucked up. There is enough to fight for in this world; 2012, Africa's plight, natural disasters....

On a much much more shallow note, John Mayer is sexy. Jonathon Rhys Meyers is sexy too. What is up with the excruciatingly perfect demigods with same names??? There are too damned many handsome 30 year olds lying around in this world.
Oh i love this term Joey (the once upon a time sweet innocent one) used that day we were at the library, Kex was 'eye-fucking' a cover model. Eye-fucking! \m/

TGIF, exhausting week for real.

Would you ever wanna leave it, baby you could not believe it, that my love for you was blind.

Let's waste time. Chasing cars. Around our heads.

2010-01-19T23:48:00.005+08:00

School is good, lax, pretty slack, interesting enuf, very little workload, i am getting along at a good pace i feel.
Swimming is crazily mind-clearing ive been doing it every other day which is awesome.
Tuesdays' tuition has ended with a 1 hr music session much like last wk, Mj and Xh are surprisingly intense with Amaths which is danged intimidating.
I just had a really good talk with Gilbert, really puts things into perspective thanks birdie poop who's been a strong presence since my sec 1 year! :D
Btw ive always been decisive Kex babe u gotta decide tmr haha hope u choose well! kinda disappointed but i Do Not regret dropping HCL at all, my goals were always focused elsewhere.
Sterling and Champ's lives has come full cycle, Amen to the sweeties who brought us much joy.
And lastly i am becoming more and more of an eccentric, detached figure as days pass, life rolls on and my brain cells continue mutilating.
on a sidenote, J-we have always been friends let's not compromise that. u should know ive always appreciated this relationship.

2010 i have such high expectations of this year, sweet heavens above just let it pass fulfilling and mundane at the same time.

Song title says it all. ah the Beauty of Music it is truly bizarre sometimes.

Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep. Countless lovers, under cover of the street.

2010-01-18T22:31:00.004+08:00

Okay OCY time to loosen your strain! :D

What am i watching for??? Wait for it...

Here she comes, here she comes...

Aha a good shot of her lil blue/yellow swimming cap!

Gleeful!
Geez stupid girl let's swim again sometime soon!
And just btw fyi Kex ily! :* (i know very random just feeling like spreading da love.)

K i love shopping so much so much. Peace out.

Oh youve been roaming around.

Memories can bring, diamonds and rust,

2010-01-10T23:26:00.008+08:00

SS proj and lots of talk (as usual right).
Joey thanks for my Xmas prezzie although mine was given away!~
Just btw, If you add Kex and Jo tgt and divide by two they'll be hot. Unbalanced hormones and horniness, seriously.

Big big love.

*
It's just that the moon is full.
Coupla lightyears ago, heading straight for a fall,
I remember your eyes were bluer than robins' eggs,
My poetry was lousy you said,
So where are you calling from?

Already a legend, unwashed phenomenon,
Strayed into my arms and there you stayed,
Madonna was yours for free;

Now i see you,
brown leaves fallin
snow in your hair
smiling out the window over Washington square
we could have died then and there.

Telling me you're not nostalgic
Keeping things vague cause i need that vagueness now
Yes I loved you dearly and I've already paid.

But baby the way you make, my world go round,

2010-01-07T20:27:00.004+08:00

The baby-making machines lookin good at mid-forties.

Lol the candids of stupid ppl. Caught with white wine i know right! Since the Bali trip hangin out around the aunts company everyone drinks wine so bizarre.

That French Connection dress is the most expensive shitz i've ever owned like for real.

I love attending weddings everyone drinks and our table got real loud and mad! :D

Okay. So much to randomly blog about.
Caught Avatar twice, 3D on New Year's Eve with the primary schl gang, and then with Xuan on her second day of Sec schl life i know right i'm getting all teary cuz my baby sis is growing up.
Yeah melodramatic family antics too these days, everyone's going nuts around the house and i am just way too emotional for my own damn good.

Had a real good talk with Joey today! Until butt ache lmao.
That Kexin told me aww she would be there to listen to my theatrical problems and then tada turns up sick today (okay lah for the past few days alr)! Lol darling get well soon manz!
Schl hasn't been all that bad but one thing i've figured is that you can never truly change and even then people are always bloody opinionated even teachers who should know better.

7 days into 2010 and all i wanna do is get it over with. CL results are cmg out and oddly enuf i've gotten this weirdest premonition that it's a lose-lose situation for me. If i remain HCL i wont get the 2 pts end of this year, and i have to deal with Li Hongyan's bloody theatrics wtf. If i drop confirm sian and Mdm Gwee... maybe not so bad?
Whether i get flying colours for O's or fail miserably, i am getting the hell out of Xinmin for sure straight after that. Bali/Texas with Joey Tay FTW!
This schl has been nothing but shit for me but i suppose i have only myself to blame. Damn it.

Yes or no private candidate for Music? Still lusting over the dream of <10pt JC though it's always what i've aimed after. And i always get what i aim for.
Like those Emporuim Armani black frames i've set my sights on. Those are mine.

Btw things are so weird right now whether at home or with J. Is it horribly cowardly of me to just want him to really get back from Canada the next time before we talk. Dude for all i know you're immigrating and you know i dont do anything long-distance. Seriously. I'm sorry for all the bullshit i've been giving you since the start of this year, k. Really.

K aimless rantings bring me nowhere and i just know that tomorrow will be spent outside Eng class doing holiday hmw there's no way i'm coming close to finishing which sucks, TGIF tomorrow! Have totally had enuf of schl for the week. Ciao~

Buckcherry~Sorry

♫ Mean Little Mama ♫ | MySpace Video
P/S. I know it's hard and i mean every word.

And a patridge in a pear tree,

2009-12-28T23:58:00.002+08:00

Yay for the curls!

Btw, I did it.

See the lights upon the tree!

2009-12-25T22:55:00.005+08:00

Bali trip was magic.

-beautiful secluded villa in uptown district

-2hr drive to volcano Kintimani and 400USD dinner

-Kuta beach
-braiding cornrows
-shopping and dripping sorbet and cig ash from the boyz everywhere and checkin out hot Caucasians
-few hrs pool and back to villa for hardcore full body/leg massages and cheapie mani-pedis for the galz
-more expensive dinners and shopping
-late night poker/mahjong

-boyz probably consumed about 100 odd bintang beers and as many ciggies (as Sixuan says it was the most hardcore intake of 2nd hand smoke evah in our life)

-white water rafting was a spectacular first time experience for sure with strong currents many rocks and one drop (salute to my Granz who went along for it at 80 years of age booyah my g-mother owns yours thanks)

-dinner at Rumours which has great food/atmosphere and free pool

-flight delayed from 10pm to 2 frickin AM damn fucking hideous
-scrabble til faint
-mad turbulence damn scary
-back at Sg 4+

***

-Pleasant surprise when i got back yeaaaaa babey Foafoa ftw, Natalie atw, Russell was golden, heartz Survivor videos on Youtube CBS the bomb! Alr cant wait for Heroes vs Villains. I swear reality tv next year is gonna be killer, fuckedszx up shit O levels.

-permed hair (OMGSZX I KNOW RIGHT! I look like meow!) and new phone uh-huh uh-huh |m/

-Jetlag induced shagness for a coupla days, hurriedly adjusted my waking hours from 7pm to 2pm it's the best i can do............ What can i say twas a great trip, organising the pictures like the OCD freak i am brings some good laughs, the big day's tomorrow i cant wait, Sunday gathering more shagging for sure, and definitely today i've had a great Christmas notably shopping at La Senza yeah baby B-cup lmao~

i will rant soon. i will rant really soon i swear and i dont give a single flying fuck to the Kman who hates it. Picture bombardation before 2010 pinkie promise! :D:D:D

For a sleigh ride together with you~

2009-12-17T14:10:00.003+08:00

Lol it was the best BBQ evah. Swear i'll blog about it at the class blog soon as i get back from Bali.

Nah vain girls these are the pics for y'all sorry it's one day late :D
Luv y'alls we shd do this again sometime soon!

Geekily excited, lookin forward to all the beach sports and white water rafting heh heh.
Sun sand and the sea here i come~

Dowan perm.

2009-12-07T12:37:00.002+08:00

Nowadays damn sian.
Nowadays damn busy.
December is gon be a busy month.
I'm gonna have the busiest Christmas evah.
I love it I love holidays i dun wanna go back schl I dun wanna think of O levels and studies.
already in denial.

Wikipedia, American politics, Youtube, Project Runway, 超級星光大道, Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2009, Damien rice mtvs, guitar lessons, brand new novels, class gatherings and clique gatherings, movies, Christmas gift exchanges (advanced heh heh heh), piano events and Cedar track & field, are the bombz.

How come every time holiday my sec schl peeps all ignore me?????? :( you all very very bad. But Jan 3rd I book y'alls alr ok we got surprise ahem winks. Want Xmas gift exchange??????

*
Sneak peeks!
-singsong.

-VS angels.

-'Closer'; hawt stuff.

-learnin' like damn hard plszx.

-'grey!'

Curse at the wind, He broke his own heart,

2009-12-02T22:38:00.003+08:00

Xuan u are being so insufferably incorrigibly infuriating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I.WANT.A.NEW.HAIRSTYLE!!!!!!! Nowhere near long enuf for what i originally planned so i'm going shoulder-length (again i know and i have no clue why everyone ive asked is like telling me dont cut dont cut keep it long) and curly wurly~
i think it's a small change ley everyone say no no dont dont.
Nobody's stopping me!!!!
okkk for ref:

Whatcha think?

当我们同在一起?

2009-11-23T22:13:00.003+08:00

coupla Way Overdue Pix i know right get off of me already!
everyone knows Group shots = big big luhv.

When are we doing this again?

just love to see Honesty going strong :D Chalet 13 14 15 y'alls.

Ahma's 80th. Missing 10+ but wow, Gran sure did a good job.

yahhhh life's pretty good hells yeah to the holidays~
Geez i'm more psyched out for Xuan's PSLE results than she is.... How big a nerdyass dweeb does that make me?

Nicole!

2009-11-19T22:16:00.004+08:00

Knew it was gon be her cos there was no hope for dyslexic Laura sweet she may be. Finally a girl ive been rooting for from the start yay!

ANTM is addictive stuff looked at previous cycles and there was this hottest swimsuit for Men's/Women's magazine shoot in cycle 8.

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been watching so much tv stuff. NBA, Survivor, etc.... too lazy to start on GG3 cant find a full playlist anywhere. I have not done anything except lazy around. balking at my sloppiness, i wake up at 2pm everyday it's unacceptable but i got nuthin better to do than laze around all shag. Devouring romances, occassionally by the pool, shopping and good food on weekends ahhhhh this is the life.
how's your holiday been?

Top model,

2009-11-14T15:38:00.003+08:00

Finally my fave 2 just as i predicted! well Jennifer and Erin were awesome but u gotta choose.
swear Laura is a sweetheart but puh-lease. Nicole won from day 1 she got in front of the camera. Finally a weird girl's gon win i luv it finally~~

all the way 'round and they're gonna walk the runway for real this time. Such fun!
this season has the most amazing photos. I'm such a geek i keep going browsing.

k as Joey keeps saying ive been dead. O level MT was not fun, Gran's 80th buffet was fun, mahjong few nights ago was fun, ktv was fun, tennis was fun, so many pix.......
lazy Saturday bye.

I am,

2009-11-09T21:08:00.002+08:00

screwed like a cheap whore, and so scared, and so out of it, but i dont wanna hyperventilate tomorrow, although a panic attack is just waiting to strike, this is just a moment of weakness..... I could go on and on and on. I can't remember ever being so freaked by a measly exam. like ever. It is no comfort that perhaps just about everyone is as freaked.
You can't be more freaked than me.

So why do i try? I know i'm gon fall down.

2009-11-04T00:28:00.005+08:00

Beautiful isnt it.
got to catch up on GG season 3. absolutely Hate the couple pairings 'sides Blair/Chuck. soon as MT ends there is so much to dooooooo~

Champagne wishes, caviar dreams?

2009-10-14T20:36:00.004+08:00

I have my sights set on this one particular Gucci wallet and a leather backpack after an evening of online browsing and i just know Mom will have so much to say about it. It's one of the few things i just can never see eye to eye with her: she's always known I'm materialistic but if i can support my own splurges on my measly allowance, like who's she to comment? I know blah bleeping blah my money is her money, i think she can just stuff it cos it's not like I'm starving myself to save up for flashy stuff i dont need. Besides i always go for discounted stuff seeing as how i'm a student and i really don't give a shit if my purchases are last season. So getting anything branded and 30% off and sometimes even halfed and yet still in tip-top condition, is like a steal imo. Seriously.
Her fave few phrases to throw out at me: chao lao, ai mu xu rong, and her favourite waste money. Why waste money if it's money well-spent on soft leather and good quality merchandise? Why is she entitled to LV Burberry etc and that's not wasting money but just cos i'm a few decades younger i'm wasting money? Hate. I swear ima have a good talk with her about this. Like back the hell off about my spending. Tomorrow we're going on an Orchard spree and i just know her comments will never ever cease if i say, splurge a few hundred on a pretty wallet. I can already feel her nag-engine start up, you know revving and just humming to go.
I don't know how long she means for me to be content with like Zara Topshop Ms Selfridge etc but yknw what? Even Warehouse or Armani to her is way too ex for me, which is just... I mean, i'm just never gon sit around waiting for her to approve of my buying.
Damn it.

Screwed like a cheap whore. capitals, S, C and W.

2009-10-07T20:13:00.004+08:00

tmr A maths and e. Geog. I have not started studying and i dont even know what's wrong with me, it's the absolute first time ive been so utterly UNmotivated. i have a theory though: Inertia. There's just no force pushing me, not even my horrific CA results that need serious pulling up, not even the fear of retaining (highly imposs?), not even getting grounded whole holidays (hole at home with romance books doesnt sound too bad)... Nothing.

looking forward to open field performance this Sunday, though it's just some lame ass thingy and i'm playing the shitty easy Cai hong. i cant believe i said 'lame ass thingy' btw.
looking forward to NBA season.
looking forward to guitar lessons aft exams, and looking forward to major splurjage 3-month Orchard-abstinence is taking its toll.
most of all looking forward to next year. hopefully it'll be even more mundane than this.
lmao, i am such a total geek.

I can think that we just carried on;

2009-09-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

guess i'm Back for now.

my Sister is better than yours! Sixuan all the best for PSLE :D

when gap year, when Ivy league, when travel the world?
i cant stay put indefinitely, and yet there's no end in sight.
no matter what kinds of lousy grades i get, i need that MT A1 for real. if not how go under 10pt JC? how to go NUS?
and i really dont think my testimonial is at risk at all but just for the record, Mr Too is such a underhanded scheming little bastard. Damn it.

"you keep changing every year," You love to say in such a demeaning way.
"what of it?" People change. deal.

cant stand for this year to just End already. i have my life to get on with. gahhhhh Frustrated.

Some desert for your ears,

2009-09-23T21:01:00.000+08:00

been watching Xing guang videos this whole afternoon. luv.

Olivia Ong,

Diya,

Zhiyang,

Aijia,

As a whole Spore did great which is awesomeeeee cos i think our entertainment rep out there sucks balls.

sexyfine, charming and a ton of cute thrown in.

this girl damn stylo-milo.

their no.1 Girl. this version is bombz.

& duets.

their no.1 Guy.

yep. Dunno how ima handle my exam schedule. need a attitude makeover seriously. How?

Fleeting escape.

2009-08-20T18:14:00.001+08:00

why is blogger so fucked?
temp space.

Just take a bite, let me shake up your world!

2009-08-12T17:02:00.005+08:00

you know how it is MCs make one day stretch out much longer even if you sleep til noon?
i have gotten exactly one piece of school hmw done, and am experiencing a bout of very mild melancholy which i am gonna blog off right now....

dont you ever feel, Like you need to steer your life going in a certain direction towards success and you know how to get there but ure not doing anything about it, like how i should totally be prepping for O level MT and i know how to go about it but am not getting started, amongst other things. Yep.
every year i tell myself: this is the year i am going to get some abs for myself! and lose the flabby thighs! and produce a Distinction for music, and HCL!
because, doing 50 sit-ups and push-ups, half an hour jogging, an hour practicing on the piano, an hour on Chinese, another hour for other homework, is perfectly manageable on top of ample novel and com time?
Very reasonable workload that never works out. because then i get my period or a pimple breakout, and i tell myself to cut me some slack.

WHY LIKE THIS? almost one year older soon, and I am still lazy, i still procrastinate way too often, and i am still getting fatter but not taller. Life sucks/

randomly: what is the big deal with birthdays? beats me.

Anyway, the other day Joey and i went over to Qiaoyi's house to learn violin and ive realised: false alarm, maybe i dont wanna learn violin anymore, not right now at least. The limitations are way too frustrating. a good wake-up call cos then i can finally look into guitar courses like ive wanted all along without a false detour. Still, we had quite some fun and just fyi i think i totally caught my cough from Joey Tay tsk.

I AM READING SO MUCH, really it amazes me. Avg of 3 novels/day now.
anyway MSNing with Salim is kinda enlightening, weirdly so. it opens my head so i feel all spacy and wise. LOL.

random Pix:

came across this i always miss you guys when are we going out again??????

Manipulation.

2009-08-08T00:52:00.002+08:00

Sore throat and raging on-off fever. real looking forward to a weekend of movies on TV, devouring romances, yummy meals, being served from head to toe by family (i wish rite!).
I am dealing super well with internet-deprivation, so i guess this is really a hiatus this time 'round.
xxx;

Ps./so many August babies like me!
9th: happy birthday my lameO bitch Meiyi who is totally estranged from me i swear.
13th: Michelle the annoying one (but not as annoying as Charis thanks.)
16th: Sherine the idiot who got 73 for Science in p4 with me and wept together but is currently pwning triple pures wtf.
18th: Chengyee the always act cute act blur one.
25th: *clears throat very loudly*

yep. u know what to do: I have no care for pressents but well wishes and cards would be appreciated thanks.
15 years old... i feel way older. Like really, ive grown a lot this year body mind spirit.
One thing that hasn't changed? WANNA GROW UP FASTER. FASTER. Graduate the shit outta XMS. Wonder if i'll look back and think myself stupid in 10/20 years time when i'm fretting over bills and forming wrinkles every which day.
Gah. like tired though i slept 10+ hours today.
Ciao, for reals this time~

Spending everyday, out on your corner in the pouring rain.

2009-07-31T02:40:00.000+08:00

Restless and now, hungry. claim of hiatus: long forgotten, lucky you.

i should be off for a good soak in the tub til dawn or at least clean enough for bed, but here i am. Disheveled and wiped clean because i spent the past few hours just reminiscing with a lovelorn asshole, like the nostalgic fool i am too.

i swear memories should just be buried deep til they're forgotten.
i hate cliche fairytale endings really. this is so not happening, not again no chance in hell.
i guess we're friends once more, full cycle. makes me wistful but yknw what?
Just Keep Away.

Will you need a blue sky holiday?

2009-07-30T23:30:00.003+08:00

com's down with Trojan. goddamn Lit proj trapped in hard disk how? :(

GI Joe: Channing tatum + Sienna miller = nuff said, must watch for sure.

want learn violin. like, really, really really want.

super bloodthirsty for new gadgets nowadays, but gonna be on hiatus mostly til com's settled then. Cheers~

You kick up the leaves, and the magic is lost.

2009-07-27T21:44:00.000+08:00

Bad day is some kinda Magic. always been my song and Free loop too. More's the pity Daniel Powter's voice is like, meh whatever.

sat's interclass games was pretty awesome, and us 307 girls bonded quite a bit didnt we! i wanted to win so badddd, but still. i cant recount everything cos it's one of those hardcore long days but anyhow, Whoever was there had as much fun as i did, and whoever wasnt well, missed out a whole damn lot.
and for what it's worth Jiahui you're a strong girl and you'll stay strong, wont you?
caught the Illusionist at night, was provoking for reals but ahh such a maniacal farfetched love. one of those movies that strike a chord, though.

anyways, much as i should be getting high on revising for Math circle properties test tmr, and a huge load of junk to file up, and Science tuition homework to do, and a lot of other shit as well to settle... here i am, blogging becasue i'm fucking ecstatic that with a magical CTRL+F5 my previous pic-posting problems are gone with a poof. alliteration from a Lit geek.

oh and i'm totally becoming a bookworm these days. escalating freefall and the ground's a far way below so i guess it will hit hard when all my academics come crashing down. couldnt care less yet. just after this entry i'll be off for my third novel of the day.
Yep, Kexin! bite that. 3 books in 1 day. suckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :D:D:D
quick rant: i always hated that Blogger doesnt have just a few fucking smileys. just let us blog up some blasted smileys for the love of Jesus. goddamn.

so my concert yesterday was pretty okay though the rehearsal was a mess and a few ppl screwed up crazy bad for the actual thing. i was wincing right outta my skin it was terrible. shopping at Paragon and Ion afterwards was heaven, such an appropriate closure for GSS though i dint get my hands on any Anna Sui stuff.

dont u love it when my fingers take on a life of their own and go wild? another lengthy post for y'alls to tear over the monitor.
and just... dont you hate it when some old friend calls up after half a year or one, and u get to catching up, and then either you or him disappears off the face of earth again? gawd, so annoying seriously!

abruptly as always, i'm precisely caught right in the middle of some catching up and i couldn't be more stunned. Hate it when things sneak up but still too curious for my own good.
no more pictures ha! just made u sit through a crazy wordy post suck on that!

Your blue skies fade to gray, you tell me your passion's gone away,

2009-07-27T21:15:00.001+08:00

NA. BEH.
i just heard the cleanest Czardas. like fucking ever:

arggg now im really tempted to take up violin if only for long nuf to learn this and maybe Canon. I mean kids like 8 or 9 years old are playing it all over Youtube - gimme a semester of 200 bucks to learn this u think possible? :D

Eclipse.

2009-07-21T22:02:00.003+08:00

anytime now? Gawd now i feel so stupid for scoffing at Kex about the eclipse lmao.
ive been living on Granola bars, and the girls go fucking crazy around recess time.
School is exhausting sometimes and i feel myself slipping back into my previous slacking routine: blank out in school, then come home faint on bed. homework leave til the last minute or just push aside. which is really.fucking.bad. been devouring romances like nobody's business and i got Kex and Joey well under my influence heh heh.
Just by the way i bombed Chinese oral the topic was crazy easy and i stuttered like a broken record -,- to top it off i screwed the pooch for Grade 7 ABRSM but with nuf luck i'll still get a meager pass.
Ah so shit.

tell me, what of forbidden dreams? seems so long ago...
I'm closing another chapter, for reals/

I make em good girls go bad,

2009-07-15T19:42:00.002+08:00

FORGOT TO POST THIS UP FOR ONG CHENG YEE BUT IT SUDDENLY STRUCK ME!
FASTER FINISH WATCHING BEEEECH! :D:D:D

zomgx, im blogging way.too.much.

Poetry for you?

2009-07-15T19:28:00.003+08:00

Throwing out a first love,
So how are you, that’s easier to say,
Instead of asking what you’ve been doing since May.
While I looked through our pictures like a foolish dork,
I’m sure you’ve been fooling around,
You’re after all a jock.
What was I thinking?
My first love a tool, an asshole and jerk.
Just like my momma warned, still I insisted.

so i really liked the idea of this until i got stuck... Then i was browsing through old documents that date back into - forever. and i came across a really cool excerpt - dont even know where the hell that came from i've never seen it before. So i built on that concept and edited and extended it into one whole big chunk, and now i have this:

Even if you never loved me the right way,
Even if the sun refused to shine, even if perfection isn’t that refined.
Even if romance ran out of rhyme and forever lost track of time.
I'll stick by you ‘til the world ceases to ashes,
and even if ever our planet and another clashes.
To support your handicaps and prepare you midnight snacks.
But I'm sorry, not me, it’s not me you see?
Well then I shan’t linger, you aren’t free.
Now I’ve been there and done that (scoffs),
true love sucks.
What good will it do, even if I wail, moan and shout?
Still I wonder, even if there won’t be a second shot.
But even if I’ll never be quite the same,
that’s okay, the world rotates.
And soon I’ll find myself on the shore by the beach,
with the waves crashing and soothing my feet.
So even if you never loved me the right way, or at all,
still I’ll wonder ‘til dawn, then laugh at myself;
Just another lovelorn chick.

pretty proud of this, took up not too much time either. Good enuf to hand up for Lit anot? i guess i couldnt care less, it's just Ms Siva's criticism unnerves me.

ORAL IS APPROACHING WITH EVERY HOUR.
and i need to practice my scales. and do my maths hmw. and....... so much to do!
Oh but btw, poetry is not writen from experience, dont worry i got no heartbreaks, although i am in fact skeptical about that big ol love word.

Every step you climb another mountain.

2009-07-15T17:53:00.002+08:00

Kobe Bryant's coming Singaporeeee! heh i not so geek to go watch him though, ESPN is enough love. And speakin of ESPN Kex thinks WWE is real. wtfszx, dude. and she refuses to believe me....

omgomgomg Oral tomorrow and ABRSM friday!!!!!! gettin real cold feet. this is a good time to run a high fever and get quarantined.

Still a NBA geek,

2009-07-14T17:15:00.000+08:00

TREVOR ARIZA LEFT LAL WHEN THE FUCK DID THIS HAPPEN? and the worst thing is he was so happy in Lal i read that it was his sucky ass manager that closed the deal NOOOOO~ i am in aftershock seriously...

first it was my sexy magnificent Ronaldo...

but i dint really care cos i dont really follow football.

but now Trevor Ariza too? my super cute 3pt shooter!!! the thing is he was soooo happy there...

see he got bromance with Kobe somemore...

looking cute,

3 pointer

the trophy gold one!

NO MORE OF MY NBA DREAM TEAM???
no more Bryant+Fisher+Gasol+Ariza+Odom.
I dont think my heart can take it.

now the rest of them better remain as cute as ever. and as awesome and win everything.

if not ah i swear im becoming a Denver fan even though they have been assholes esp JR smith. i swear. at least got Chauncey billups and Chris Anderson.

My father is better than yours!

2009-07-14T14:59:00.004+08:00

my daddy is <3 cos he totally got my phone back for me fucking finally!
still cant believe how my phone can get confiscated 4 times in this year whereas sec 1 and 2 i had no phone trouble.

Kex thinks i should clarify matters very fucking clearly but i've always been too, what, soft-hearted?
not anymore, i shall take her advice this one time.

so Keith, read this clearly: I'm not trying to be harsh but there's hardly anything left to say to you. because just fyi, you really don't know me as well as you always thought you did and i just got really sick of it, k. that was never your fault, i mean we're worlds apart and the countless quarrels were inevitable. You would have gotten sick of our contentious relationship eventually, there's no point in that. I would much rather end things on a happy note, and stay like the good friends we are. no more emails, no more anything actually, and don't contact me either. i'll talk to u soon, weekend?

Oh, and who else is dreading oral? like, really weak-in-the-knees peeing-in-my-pants scared? cuz i am, dude. not cool.

Will you always find an escape?

2009-07-11T21:47:00.004+08:00

CRAVING MY LENGTHY HAIR ALREADY!!!!!!!! WHEN WHEN WHEN WILL IT EVER GROW BACK!?!?!?!?

remind me why shoulder-length ever seemed like a good idea? now i'm stuck at transitioning and my hair length stuck in the middle of nowhere!!!!!!!! hibernating into ponytail seasons i guess.

You made yourself a bed,
at the bottom of the blackest hole
And you'll sleep 'til May and you'll say
That you don't wanna see the sun anymore.
And when it rains, on this side of town, it touches everything.
why i always go for the lackadaisical as hell boys? stay away from school and out of jobs for 2, 3 years doing nothing very fun? maybe i should take gap year after O's. now that's an idea.

'Cause it's hard for me to lose,

2009-07-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

tell me how a day goes from so good to so bad in a matter of hours...
oh i know, insert riding a bike with one fucked tyre, in the rain, developing aching butt muscles and blistering blisters, then lumbering home after a mind-blowing Science session, to face a petty, bitchy as hell sister and a whiny, complain king asshole boyfriend.

dont think i'll touch Lit alr, i deserve a good time now.
i am so spent/

And he got away with the girls in the back, Acting like they're too hot to dance!

2009-07-09T16:38:00.003+08:00

Leighton can actually really sing! now i love her more than ever, sex bomb.
Gossip girl returns September and i cannot.freakin.wait!!~! promise to give 90210 a chance before then.
and ANTM 14's still casting, but Paris new Bff's out out out out outtttttt when one i didnt even know!!!!!!! awesome shitszx.

been checking out celeb bikini photos instead of tuition hmw... Christina Milian's hot, VS angels' hot, Fergie's hot, Katy Perry's hot, Gwen Stefani's hot, Gaga's hot, Scherzinger's hot, Sienna Miller's hot. I am not going to say Megan Fox's hot, even if she is. that is too overdone. and i dislike Scarlett, never went for pasty skin. oh and Cameron Diaz has the hottest eyes. omg.

yeah so i like to look at girls more than guys. so?

Kickin the coke machine,

2009-07-07T12:18:00.000+08:00

we have too little good times.
you know, I absolutely loathe know-it-all a-holes who think they can be hard-hearted jerks just cos they're rich. anyone shares the sentiment?
marvelling over how u can rifle me so with nothing more than a pointed glare or snide remark, even as i insist not to care. i swear to god u piss me off soooo bad i could scream or pummel something.

*
nuf of the bad stuff seriously.
Youth day was spent with Xuan, we dolled up and went to Cathay for Ben and Jerry's and Ice Age 3. her huge pizza cracked me up damn bad, couldnt stop guffawing. movie was great too, pretty light and funny stuff. when we got home i crashed on the couch with another novel and cheesecake...... Homework's still all unstarted. i am so screwed i cant believe i just shat away an entire weekend, again.
Ytd too was spent towning, Mango huge sales everywhere huge sales, actually. just havent really splurged yet, not too sure what i should bomb my money on. Takashimaya's crystal jade restaurant near the fountain sucks. u dont even wanna find out for yourself, just take my word on this, k.

pix:

first ever time we remotely resemble sisters, for reals!

zero make-up. the Lui family lashes are the sex bomb im tellin ya.

back to skul tmr.....

I won't change by the glamorous!

2009-07-04T20:51:00.003+08:00

changed back to this cos i like it uh-huh uh-huh.
i got a lotta hmw to do this weekend and no plans for Monday............

days have been so blah but it's a comfortably mundane routine.
I dont want to go back to assembly in parade square that leads to the eventual attire problem really.
oh and phone confiscated this time round has me feeling entirely nuthin'. i dont need my hp actually, and discovering that surprised me. it's just a piece of metal and whatever anyways.

just as it's time to get serious for piano with rehearsals and the concert and my exam coming right up, i'm getting pangs urging me to pick up violin/guitar. Violin, guitar, violin, guitar?!? i reaaaaally cant decide what do u think??

great swim then Macs delivery with mom and sis earlier this evening. gonna catch a good ol romcom online, buhbye.

just getting over it,

2009-06-30T16:14:00.003+08:00

Cabbed home after school and have been googling up on Heath Ledger and Brokeback Mountain since. You dont even now how stupiddddd i feel i didnt know he passed away last year. Imagine watching a good romcom with a hot actor, then googling up aforementioned hot actor and finding out he's accomplished, talented and dead. slightly depressed but i know that's silly.
Will definitely have to watch Brokeback Mountain one of these days then - gulp - am i ready for it first anottttttt....

time for lots of homework - my fave yay!

Release your inhibitions, Feel the rain on your skin.

2009-06-29T22:04:00.002+08:00

First day of school, started out great in the morning with cheesecake and coffee.
Lessons were pretty slack, then caught Ghosts of Girlfriends Past at AMK, like finally.
Dozed off in the cab on the way home, peaceful til K called and begged for dinner at 5.......
Hey but it's been a fineeee day man.
That said, i cannot fucking wait, for this school year and the next to be over already.
Just graduate and i'll have my whole life ahead of me. Like i said, cant wait.

Be the flame; not the moth. - Casanova (2005)

2009-06-28T00:22:00.005+08:00

i enjoyed this! seems such fun.

and as for this sweetheart... caught sight of him during Olympics 08 if u'll remember.
cant wait to see him jerseyed up!

next season Shaquille+LeBron vs Kobe again? yeayeayea. hate magic. heart lakers, heart denver nuggets. Ftw!

dont call me geek again pls.

and btw? lost today's piano competition watched my cheque fly away into worthier hands, big sigh. ay i think i played okay. heh heh. but anyway no money = no good phone lor.
solution? cheap phone lor.

Preston...?

W508?

cant decide.... still craving my pretty blackberry Curve. or E71. how, worth the money anot??? somemore they say E63 lousy....
they tell me take touchscreen. like the gay Preston. or the gay Jet. or the gay Omnia.... i sad.

A birthday:

2009-06-25T21:33:00.005+08:00

-and now a day that rose
With much of hope, with meaning rife-
A thoughtful day from dawn to close:
The middle day of human life.
-Jean Ingelow

Happy birthday Amanda!
sorry we werent able to celebrate, but u'll still get ur pressent once school opens. :D
hope u'll enjoy ur year of 15, u deserve the best out of life! And that includes... no more guys who dont treat u right okay? we will always be here for u!

Happy birthday Xinhorng!
tsk, too many comments for u that u alr know. :D Anyways isnt it awesome that u didnt have to spend ur birthday with l4d characters after all? same to u, enjoy ur year of 15! :D

2 more months and it's my turn. i've never been a fan of birthdays, although i've had a few memorable ones to date, p6 one (with friends celebration, then gettin good ol drunk in Hard Rock Cafe with daddy) topping the list.
but personally, it's always a day to be spent with family, most definitely Mom. we should in fact celebrate for our mothers instead of ourselves isnt it? well it's just a passing thought.

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end. - Seneca

2009-06-24T19:08:00.002+08:00

Last day of work was Monday and yes it has taken me this long to get pictures up.
Yknw this job has been totally time-consuming of my entire holidays, and i've had zero social life, whatever free time is divided btwn K and friends and family, and hmw is still untouched as of this moment.
But i will still really miss it all. Going by the same old routine daily, although mundane, is extremely gratifying esp once Fridays signal the start of my weekend.
I'll miss...
waking up at 7am every morning and the journey to Somerset looking the youngest hippest commuter of them all.
mocha latte and doughnuts, or kopi and killiney kaya toast, or ice milo and roti prata for brekkie by myself. i know it sounds disgusting but Killiney street has the best food.
peanut butter morning tea break, choc biscuits aftn tea break supplied by teacher Felicia and the cook's best sweet Chrysanthemum tea.
riding home in mom's car reading novels in the evening light.
taking off my heels after an exhausting day.
Not to forget, the kids! Really love em. Within a mere 12 days i've bonded with every single one, scolded every single one, gotten freaking pissed with every single one and in the next sec thought they were freaking adorable again.
the feeling of herding them in twos running thru Vivocity to catch our movie, and roaming Giant to buy sweets with 12 7-yr olds in tow, and exploring Science centre and Waterworks, itz like everyone watches super admiringly how can i handle these monsters yknw! Sense of achievement. and explaining their corrections to them thrice and again, and looking at their adorably confused faces... or playing hangman during Science intro, or arm wrestling with the boys or heart attack with the girls... and seeing my own shadow in them!!!!!!!!! SO CHEESY I KNOW RIGHT. and randomly, I got a huge sucker ice burn on my back while playing the slide in Snow city with em but it was totally worth it. Gonna end abruptly with peektures!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my fave babies, excluding Andrea Cheyenne Clara and Adele.

Angel :D

Steffi :D

Commotion on the last day, Leslie's toy stuck to the ceiling it was awesome funny.

My kids!!! Missing a few darlings like Leslie, Tengxuan, Cheyenne, Twiston, Angel... actually quite a lot cant rmb them all but super love to the max! Now i def want kids even if i have to clean their poo poo.

Anyways, today was Lit lit lit nonstop.
And like, what's with the chimness? Head started spinning and all, and my eyes even watered at one point staring at a chunk of emoshit. After a bit it got better and i'm finally, finally getting some good progress. Think can only complete Lit/Geog projects and Maths at best.
Coming to terms with the fact that school is opening on Monday after all, and i really need to stop sleeping at ungodly hours like 3am and waking at 6pm.........

Going for a swim later! Red thread is gay but i wanna watch also. And rewatch the some of the classic GG eps, and ANTM recaps!
Bye suckers!

[edited]
J.J Redick is hawtttttttttttttttttttttttttttt max man.

i love.

hey, Dad, look at me. think back and talk to me.

2009-06-21T16:13:00.002+08:00

Happy Father's Day, yeah right.

Just had a shriek-yell match with mom over freaking pads. Think Siying screaming off her lungs with a crazed glare and mom pissed to the max.
I declared that i was hell to the nawt gonna go out with em for dinner.
Dad interjects: huh? but Father's Day leh.
the best Father's Day quote i've ever heard is blurted out by me viciously: It's not like you're a good father anyway.

I am fucking heartless.
I feel so bad right now.
I dont know how to apologise.
Just strike me please, lightning.

go out and smash it like oh my God.

2009-06-20T19:45:00.000+08:00

check it out!

our first attempt that was kinda fail but we're on the right track.... right?
Well we've still got a month. Hmm.
anyways i dunno why the quality is so effed up. this was recorded with the newly bought TZ7 which looked great til i uploaded it to Youtube......

say hi to sleek straight layers. And ohya, shoulder length dont be too shocked. Got it done today at Twister and personally i am quite satisfied.
K thinks i shdnt have gotten a haircut on a whim and esp without consulting him first. wtf!? i mean, for reals, i didnt ever know u were like that and u better fucking stop it. cos we really dont need to argue over things like that on top of, well everything else as it is.

plsplspls holiday extension i need the time to do my hmw....... fingers crossed.

tonight's gonna be a good, good night

2009-06-20T00:44:00.003+08:00

This cracks me up every.single.time.
I miss watching NBA but Youtube makes it a bit better. And i heart HQ!

been reading For One More Day, it's heartbreaking :( well, so far at least and ima finish it up right now.
p/s. holiday hmw is untouched. How?

I'll be deep asleep, I've been awake for days.

2009-06-16T22:56:00.005+08:00

Even if i knew what to say to you,
I'm sick of fighting.
I hope that you're happy tonight.
It's all that I've got to carry you in my heart,
But all I can say was goodnight.

Just an old pic i found somewhere in the remnants of what used to be, and in truth i treasure it more than you would imagine, really kept close to my heart.

Hmm, quite some things i need to think about then.

I'll still get butterflies years from now, I'll make every second count.

2009-06-14T00:36:00.005+08:00

Yeah ive been too busy lately... Busy at Alphabet, busy with piano finals and concert, busy with my sexyfine boyfriend..!? LOL no lahhhhh pls ignore ongSeewhy and Kex who are invading my tagboard and spreading untruths thanks. Keith and i are -ahem- very close friends yup. *blowkiss* ay bitch got catch my kiss anot????????

I love working and weirdly enuf i love squeezing in the MRT during peak hours with my heels killing me and just reading my novel while ppl look on with tired frowns. I love having breakfast at 8 in the morning sugar donuts and Latte along Killiney, and rushing down the escalator causing a din in my heels. Will be sad when these mundane days end.
BTW when i get my paycheck (which is measly but thatz okay) ima splurge it on Anna Sui makeup. Just some eyeliner mascara foundation concealer the works, it'll all be so puh-ray-tay!

Anyways, updates for ya!
2nd outing to Vivo for movie. I love the kids. Love em love em.

Monsters vs Aliens 3D eh was busy lookin after the kids but the movie i guess itz okay lah. I got compliments from quite a few moms ley ^^ they were bloody impressed with my amazing success with handling 13 lil kids.

Lika our hyper new Jap girl.

Cheyenne! She's super bright okeh she HCL somemore dont play play.

Kaiyu who loves to flash but damn clever like mad.

my 4 boys can u spot the Xh fucking lookalike?!?!?! And Keith u look like a cross of all these 4 lovely boys :D lmao.

my little angels!

Karaoke again today with my <3clique!

acting cute thanks.

zy lookin spooky balls.

We.had.an.awesome.hilariously.entertaining.time. :D:D:D
(btw look out for the infamous cleft in my chin that i absolutely -heartz-)

my lovelove. LOL.

im off!

Now keep ya love locked down, you lose.

2009-06-03T23:33:00.010+08:00

MIA'd after that awesome GG vs BOF post, i figure it's fair game that i'm blogging at midnight after so many days gone AWOL. This makes up for it okayyyyyyy but it's gonna be boring as hell.

Overdued from NATM2.

On the way to piano audition (which i flunked and therefore dont wanna talk about anymore! lmao)

Happy birthday to Jiahui and Valerie, y'alls.
Shit, the booze i bought was downed in like 10 secs seriously. One toast for birthday girl and a few sips for everyone that's about it... Next time we'll bring 10 okay, Val! :D

Jaywhy whom at the end of the night had a 'you jump i jump' moment and we landed in the pool with my hairstyle exactly the way it was nice dry pretty SO HAPPY cos she got fuck wet.)

Birthday girl and Joey (fellow Man.U kaki!) who have been amazing EL table partners this first semester.

MJ who's probably the first guy i ever had so many (considerably fierce) quarrels with in only 1 semester and still can act close take pic that kind lmao.

Kex, had an awesome time soaking in the jacuzzi. Or maybe just soaking fucking wet.

Cabbed home soaking wet and quite sad cos it was a nice driver.

Carousel pictures, food was good family was great although we always like high-low when go out. Dad and mom bicker and sis and i and grandma bicker and it's all lovely and loud and vulgar i love it.

I started workkkk and for once in my life i dont go 'ugh' when i see kids really! I used to hate them cos like everytime i go out in heels cfm will have some tripping over me, bumping in my cb like damn buayba then start crying then the mothers glare and aunties tsk it's like wtf...
Then i always thought they are these furballs of drool and like mucus and just really ew stuff that i dont wanna get near, and i never really wanted to get too close to my tear-prone cousins either, but my kids at Alphabet Playhouse are the sexxxxballs man.
Super cute, super quick like can understand my 100word/sec Eng and damn independent also. They dont even act snobby what with living in fucking Sentosa you'd expect all of them to have sticks up their asses and act like royalty but no, all very down-to-earth, mature and all. Work is like play, walk around aircon room mark p1 p2 assessments plan Science Intro lessons that are basically Hangman and it's awesomeeeeeeee and i love that i'm getting paid for it and i love that it's smack in the middle of Somerset like 5mins away from Orchard so girlszx if y'alls wanna go out i get off at 6pm :D:D:D

Dont say they ugly or i will smack the balls out of you. We'd been waiting for our bus for fucking 1hr or something (i was leading 12 p1/p2s) and these shots are like 'look up smileeeeeeee' practically candid okay. They are ganjideh chioszx+yandaoszx+cuteszx in real life.

My girls: Steffi Andrea (i love Andrea she reminds me of my kindergarten friend forgot her name, and also Six's kindergarten friend Eva only like 10 times smarter) and Susan and...

Angel and Ferne (i love Ferne cos she smiles like every 2 seconds and she is damn sugar sweet.)
I also love Cheyenne who's angmohhhh but she dint join us so no pix.
My boys are faveeee superlove!

Iliya our hyper Russian kiddo :D

The brave Twiston who did not cry when he fucking slipped and knocked his tooth off at Waterworks... (Oh but on a sidenote zero have cried okay, Z-E-R-O.)

Super smart Leslie!

My crazy naughty Darren Poh!

Tired after a day at Science Centre and Waterworks.

Got others but no pix yet, so these are my little bundles of joy love them love them i dont want Six anymore. (Although she baked choc sponge cake for us today heh heh.)

So, sorry if i've been totally not contactable no i'm not dying no i'm not quarantined due to H1N1 if i'm not replying your smses it's really probably because i don't want to reply yep, Phua Chu Kang say dont play play use your brain use your brain use your brainnnnn *points at forehead*

No time for anything nowadays but looking forward to NBA finals on Fridayyyyy my offday. Love the very thought of basic stuff like romance novels and banana nut crunch cereal and staying in late and McGriddles now. Everyday in the tube i see all these adults with perma-frowns and armpit sweat stains and no ring on their ring finger and it's just kinda sad cos i enjoy work a lot and they ahhbbviously dont at all which is too damn bad heh heh. So i can appreciate all these simple things much better and looking forward to nuaing on Friday. Do.not.mention.that.i.have.piano.and.tuition.on.Friday.
that.is.nothing.compared.to.handling.thirty.endlessly.energetic.monsters.
all.of.a.nine.fucking.hour.day.long.
I love of them from p1-p6 but boyyyyyy everything seems easier when they're out of the picture.
LOL oh and i wonder how i dont get horny around them esp with the book Six lent me recently that i devour in the MRT... God forbid anyone glimpses any sentence of that book and God forbid my baby sister actually reads (and understands) it. Nope, nono. She doesnt even know what a clitoris is yet.

I am suddenly overwhelmed with lethargy so...
buhbye!

I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore,

2009-05-30T05:44:00.004+08:00

Couldnt get to sleep so i read a book (thick one) and am now blogging...
Supposed to be at the airport in 2 hours time to fetch mom.
And right about now i'm contemplating starting on holiday hmw, perhaps compre or that killer E.maths wksht? Or maybe bathe and paint my nails. Or watch 90210. Nah, i'll probably get nothing done.
I am going to be so fucking exhausted tmr, i mean today. Can imagine what a mess i'll be at the audition later, and then i wont last 2 hours into Valerie's bbq.

As for results, with a lousy 58.4% i still stand at 6th in class and 110 in the level.

I learnt/realised three things today:
1. my family means the world to me.
2. it sucks when ur bawling your hearts out over something crazily trivial in front of the only people u really love, and they dont care and u just feel damn stupid for bawling over that minute matter in the first place, and then u think a lot and realise that u love some ppl a lot more than they will ever love u and that's life and u cant help it and u just start feeling sorry for urself.
3. playing piano keeps my mind off, like, everything else. nothing you need to know.

i am hungry. LOL when am i not. i should be bulimic or something. God help me i wanna be.
Oh i suddenly feel damn happy and im gonna go familiarise myself with basketball and football terms. Or maybe i'll go search for Janice Dickinson quotes and laugh til i pee in my pants. Or read through Xiaxue's entire archives. Or maybe just rewatch ANTM or VS 2009 or GG. Hmm...

[edited] surfing through brand names Poltock & Walsh, Christian Louboutin loveszx, i really do deserve to be some high fashion stylist/model/whatever related to fashion in future right. Like i am devoted.
Oh and i discovered i really do love Lit, or at least being a (sorta) intellect. Really do. Cos i like to act smart 8)

Comparisons are easily done,

2009-05-29T01:40:00.003+08:00

Recently all i've been hearing about is Boys over Flowers plot and Korean names floating around every corner i turn in school.
Personally, i just dont see it.
[Disclaimer before we start: potentially hugely offending for fans, so there!]

The most recent Asian romance drama i watched is 不良笑花 i know fucking long ago alr and that was nonono not good enough once i discovered Gossip Girl.

So let's start with first impressions,
I googled Boys over Flowers and i got this:

One of the hugely common ones, nobody looks fantastic, typical drama with typical actors.

Gossip Girl:

Just look at the contact. One word: H-O-T. Which will u choose to waste time on? Dont need to lie to yourself also.

Then maybe u dont fall under the 'sex sells' category for consumers. But anyway, ppl who watch those romance dramas get high on the kissing scenes right? Dont deny.

This is the start of Chuck and Blair, already PWNS the other one no question about it. The cheekbones and jawlines and lips!

I found this with a caption 'one of the more aggressive...' I mean, really? The guy is fucking swallowing the girl (whose nose is fat), which is not cool. Fail.

Havent kiss alr more aggressive.

And what's with the censorship??? Also not RA what.
You will never find these in Asian productions:

Now for the cast, very important.
The difference btwn awesomeness and epic fail.

chemistry versus

awkwardness

goofy fun versus

boring predictable

stylish versus

flop

As for female leads.

Pretty? For sure.

Sexy. There is a difference in case u didnt know.

You all got eyes to see.

Trivia for you? This Taylor Swift lookalike is 14 years old. Ownage!!!

Both casts wear uniform.

Well, GG wears it better. And personally i feel Blair was totally the one who brought the high-waist trend.

Lastly, one thing GG masters that many other dramas seriously lack: FASHION!!!

To.Die.For.

There is too much and i cant cover all.
Conclusion? Gossip Girl wins. hands down.
Arent you so ready to get hooked on GG? Two seasons for you to salivate over. No need to thank me.

Flying off the edge of the road;

2009-05-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

This few days has been boredom. I know Kex think i no life cos i watch NBA and UEFA, AND MANUTD FUCKING LOST :( ok lah Barcelona quite cute hor, just that 10mins goal i was fucking spasming. NBA, LAL AND DENVER! Whoever goes to the next round i will heart, and then still got Cavaliers woots babey LeBron James cute cute got round tummy lmao.

Just now tuition with OngSeewhy, then walked 4 bus stops home and talktalk. Then brought Sixuan to THREE DIFF CLINICS AT THREE DIFF LOCATIONS before finally going 681 24hr and busting fucking $70 songboh my dad burst a vessel heh heh. Andddd i think im a fucking wonderful sister cos i was running up down left right borrowing money for her lor tamade.

School is a fucking waste of time really, basically skip classes to play taiti. Caught NATM 2 which was damn funny ballszx. Idiot Kexas lah she got like zero sense of humour.

Holiday coming up finally one month~ but like working 16 days away jitao seh ley.
Report book tmr if i just get top 5 in class i will get $$$ from parents, at least enough to maybe buy some stuff from alldressedup fucking finally.

My days are getting super busy chalet to plan auditions to attend scores to memorise and prep for chinese O's. Knn, this Honghong will be stunnedballszx when we ALL get A1s (A2 also must pop bubbly alr.) This one must swear on my penis.

Okkkk this post seems frantic right i know cos i hungry and sick and tired of being sick and tired. Haha no lah act only thanks, buaiszx!

[Edited] i have wanted a Razr for the longest time chic and easy to bling bling! Finally here's a chance. I am so getting it. Done.

Some people live for the power yeah,

2009-05-25T23:04:00.004+08:00

Used to think Eli Mattson's version was the bomb, but this one comes real close. Eli's still better anyways. :D

Have been wanting to complain about the weather for a few weeks now, but today was absolute hell.
I can feel drops of sweat trickling all over me, and esp after my afternoon nap i was drenched through, for the first time in fucking ever lor seriously.
Horrendous, i hate sweating i hate the feeling of sweat cooling on my back i hate sweat why did God invent sweat!?

Anyway i'm fucking indecisive cant stand this fickleness about myself but right now it's all helpless isn't it. Why did we go from best friends to something more to something much less?
I want it all ley, i want it all. How?

[Edited] I LOVE NBA I LOVE WESTERN CONFERENCE FINALS IM GONNA BE A B-BALL GEEK FAN 8D THIS WEEK STAY HOME WATCH NBA WATCH KOBE WATCH LAL WATCH DENVER NUGGETS HOT SWEATING GUYS <3! I.Love.NBA. And ManUtd u got my money leh! :D:D:D (Kex and Cy are totally ll over my sportsobsessiongeekiness.)

Weed mixed with whisky, Hell I got so dizzy.

2009-05-23T02:05:00.002+08:00

Keith thinks that he edit until damn chio, AND that he can improve people's mood with a takeaway Macs and slightly soggy fries. Very deluded right!?!?!
Rather thanks for coming allllllthefuckingwaydown for a 30 min dinner with me yay i highest priority :D

It's been a fucking exhausting day.

You can't believe what a mess I've been.

2009-05-22T15:10:00.004+08:00

It's ridiculous how every time i have ailments i feel like the whole damned world is fucking falling apart.
This time rounds cramps and headaches and constant aching are jabbing me every 3 seconds and i am in no mood for a 3 hour piano session seriously, ugh.

Yesterday everything was bugging me, totally off my radar. Just ask Chengyee i was damn eccentric, out of nowhere shouted VOLKSWAGEN BEETLE just to get it out of my system, one example. Still had a really good talk anyways, walked all the way home at least got 1km right? :D

Anyway, results has probably got me at an avg of C5 overall, which sucks cos i did put in effort this time round.
But anyway i wanna enjoy life for a bit before starting on Chinese prep, but everyone's a killjoy nowadays, no time no money no suggestions for gathering.

Gonna rewatch The Goodbye Gossip Girl now, buhbye.

P/s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAIWAI, i know u gandong san xia by my card, welcome welcome.

In the night i hear them talk the coldest story ever told.

2009-05-20T22:39:00.004+08:00

I FEEL SO RESTLESS and when im restless i blog like, freaking spastically.

Now that exams are finally over i feel so void. I need new hobbies new interests and a new life. Oh and God if it's not too much of a problem can you give me a new wardrobe and new nose as well?

You know i can always change my life by transferring XMS to Laselle if only i had talent, running away from home if only i hated my family, shave my head bald ala Britney if only i had guts, or just lie down in bed one day and never get up again if only i was paralysed or something. I just cant, though.

Materialistic people will NEVER be happy i'm beginning to realise mom was fucking right all fucking along. How?
Dont feel like going school tmr, really dont.
Gonna listen to t-shirt, kiss me thru the phone, dancing with myself, milkshake, just dance, etcetc now. Blast away the crazy thoughts!

When there's nothing to lose, and there's nothing to prove,

2009-05-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

She deserve it meh? Quite typical, but admittedly good photo model. Hiya i need to stop repeating myself all the fucking time. Cant wait for the next cycle! Heng ANTM picking up pace chiong like 2 or 3 seasons per year cos Tyra getting wrinkly old and fat already hahahah!

Try and use a mirror no bullet or a knife!

2009-05-20T20:20:00.003+08:00

PE was fun today, really! :D:D And results sucked balls. Seriously, i really thought i did damn okay for like, Eng, Chi, Chem, A Maths - how come like all mere just-passes? Fucking devastating, although i didnt put in like hardcore effort as promised, i really did revise and wtf, damn demoralising lah!
But then i got some cheering up! :D Just back from dinner at Prego (PORK LOIN PORK LOIN) with Keith<3! LOL the heart is entirely self-voluntary, ay ay thanks for a $200 meal no kick lah right rich boy.
Gossip girl finale has been postponed long enough, im off now. (Oh and discovered No Doubt when watching ep 24, didnt know that girl was Gwen Stefani, hot ley hot!)

P/s. Oh ya mom left for Turkey she'll be in Rome for the football finals and she doesnt even give a shit lah! Zzzballs, should i tell her my (average C6 in total) results? Dont wanna ruin her holiday ley.
P/p/s. Six's bill hit $97 last night, and we all hit the roof. Kex and Ongsee damn got in sync 'scan her phone!' 'steady she got stead lah' 'she cfm got boyfriend!' 'she hong boy ah?' 'scan! scan then will know'. LOL, eh $97 is fucking spectacular leh! My highest was like $80+ max? And those were my prime days of socialising. Times are changing, sigh.

The way you kiss me crazy,

2009-05-19T15:42:00.003+08:00

Like it? Even editing codes took me an hour but every detail you see every colour every witty line, i show care show concern and chose okay.
Doesn't matter what you think, i LOVE it!
This is like, the 8th world wonder :D

Anyways, first news of results this round hit me hard, but i was expecting it anyway. Contradicting but you know the feeling, right? I knew Science was gonna suck, still disappointed when i found out i failed. You all knew my expectations were damn high, but how could it be when there was minimal effort put in? Like this lor, hope my CA pulls it up but it's gone case already, definitely no A1 hovering in the near future. Can only hope and pray for the best when the rest of the results are revealed tomorrow, dreading it man.

Gossip Girl season 2 finale!~

So baby kiss me thru the phone, i'll see ya later on,

2009-05-18T21:32:00.004+08:00

The girlies came over today for a quick swim, sure was refreshing but i got a perm chill from that. Ay Berber, we lost 10kg practically hor! LOL at disgusting guys seriously gross max haha. Ber swam 5 laps while me only 3 but she swim too slow for me k! Haha failllll~

Just a few misc peektures!

Towning over weekend, dined at Raffles with mom, hurumph seriously nothing to get fussed up over, so average.
I dressed soooo Jap, for reals.

Post-exam shitty nua please, total waste of time, tmr dunno wanna go anot leyyyyy. Little things here and there keep some spark of drama, some spark of life. Minute realisations hit home with blaring clarity, wow too much to handle, too hot for me man.

Hilarious convo over the weekend btwn dad and sis.
D: Lim peh neh tao! Ta shoot ley! (Your father nipple! She shoot!)
S: Ni bu yao bi wo!!!~ (You dont force me!)
D: Wah! Ni ba wo de mao! (You pluck my leg hair!)
heehee silly poor dada, best sms: "Wahlao ! I fail man !" (regarding his theory exam to get his license. lol ballszx.)

Money money play shop eat shop play and shop shop. '$$$' running through my mind, gimme them Benjamin Franklins goddamn.

And your heart starts to wonder,

2009-05-14T23:24:00.003+08:00

Georgia Lee 40 years old still got fashion show featuring her.

And she won ANTM though i personally don't think she deserves the title *cough* no personality ahem. I mean she's great def best picture model but ANTM? Was really rooting for Allison esp towards the end cos she was just getting so endearing :( and Tyra always loves underdog stories, no? I guess only for those who she support *sneeze* Saleisha, Mckey - got bad cold sorry. At least not Aminat we didnt need another unglier Danielle but rigggght those two were the bitchiest black girls in a way, putoff.

GG finale coming up 18 May~ i want Chuck and Blair, i want Dan and Serena, i want Jenny and Nate imposs alr right? :( i mean Vanessa never owned up and she should totally get payback although i like her.

I loser no life exam finish at home watch 10 hours of reality tv.
No money lah ccb dont laugh at me fuck off.

If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war,

2009-05-13T14:39:00.007+08:00

END OF EXAMS BOOYAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D
Then sibei no life. Bought cheese fries with my two girlies. Walk walk eat and went home. ZZZ ballszx.
I need activities now! I want watch Star Trek, Fast/Furious and Wolverine (all still showing but last few days) but they all damn gay act girly dont want watch how???? :( me wants ley me wants.
And i need job and i need money so can shop shop til i drop!

Picture post! Starting from the top, town over the weekend which was real fruitful yknw i was whining on and on about swimsuits? Bought a one-piece from Billabong that i'd been hesitating over (price lor what else) and also a both-way wearable bikini woots! Andddd these super hawt Fly London heels they are flyyyyyyyyyyyy im tellin ya! Okay might not seem like much, but all these things hard to fit ley. Over the Vesak long weekend we went out every.single.day serious instead of studying wtf? (i mean with family and dont say i no life okay cos i love them one!!!) went Tampines 1, went Serangoon Garden, went dunno where else, and went town from 12 noon til 10pm can die!
Okay ima stfu alr.

Snipped my hair off too like 5 inches ._. bobian got to get rid of those split ends cos i want long sexy waves til my waist! :D

Dined at this tex-mex whatever place, reasonable price and the best grilled chicken ever!

Drunk on margaritas can tell right (strawberry and lime).

Real cute cozy seating we squeezed into two person cubicle heh heh.

Tried on hats at Taka while mom chose one to wear for her Turkey trip, bombed $50 on that for her mom's day gift.

Exhausted and dehydrated at 10+, drinking coke from the bottle we bought at Cold Storage Taka downstairs ppl were starin at us with this wtfffff this lousy mother want her kids get diabetes look was damn hilarious.

Going further,

Mom's day! We had delishhhh crab black pepper and all but chilli my all-time love, had shark's fin with crabmeat yum yum and my fave toufu thingy just ur typical seafood meal. When the bill came up to near 300 Dad's face was priceless! :D

So there's been an abundance of birthdays, Sixuan's was on 1st May, Uncle's somewhere late April and Mom's April 16th April too.

Haha ya i look like crazy bimbo with pinned up hair thanks.

Happy family right my uncle damn old still damn cute.

and lastly, Mommy dearest.

Okay then shall abruptly end i damn hungry gonna eat and watch Gossip Girl and Make Me a Supermodel yeah yeah make me make me. LOL;